Guilt trip
I've just watched one of those 'how to bring up your kids' shows. It's left me feeling really guilty because they kept emphasising consistency, boundaries, quality time. Looking back, I've been unable to provide any of that, consistently. It worries me that not only has my 16 yr old has lyme since he was born, he has also never had a well mum to give him the care he probably needed more than most.
We have a topsy turvy relationship, and no wonder. He has never taken instruction or rules with any grace, and has consistently broken any I've made. Now the big row is about diet. He's refusing to eat most of the food I put in front of him, and would happily live on packet pasta meals.
At the same time, the heavy antibiotics are making me feel really ill again, and we just clash head on. There's no-one to step in, so he's going hungry. It's half term and every day has been a fight to get him to tidy his room. It's tidier, but still a mess and dirty. I'm warn down and wonder what will become of him, as he can't even make his own bed or keep himself clean at 16. He knows how to have a shower but won't, won't brush his teeth, and won't eat healthy food. I want to crawl into bed and ignore it all, but I can't.
We have a topsy turvy relationship, and no wonder. He has never taken instruction or rules with any grace, and has consistently broken any I've made. Now the big row is about diet. He's refusing to eat most of the food I put in front of him, and would happily live on packet pasta meals.
At the same time, the heavy antibiotics are making me feel really ill again, and we just clash head on. There's no-one to step in, so he's going hungry. It's half term and every day has been a fight to get him to tidy his room. It's tidier, but still a mess and dirty. I'm warn down and wonder what will become of him, as he can't even make his own bed or keep himself clean at 16. He knows how to have a shower but won't, won't brush his teeth, and won't eat healthy food. I want to crawl into bed and ignore it all, but I can't.