Never Looking Back
So yeah i know i haven't updated in a little while... well here goes. I went home for christmas for like 5 days or so and if was fun. My aunt which is always causing drama in our family has found Jesus and is now trying to make amends for her actions. it was hard for me to even talk to her knowing how she treated my mom and how she talked about me behind my back, and neither one of us had done anything to her...ever. But I've learned that forgiveness is one of the greatest gifts that u can ever give a person. So I've forgiven her for her past actions, but I will never 4get them. Me and my mom are becoming much closer than we were b4. I like that a lot. It makes me smile. But on the other hand, my dad and I seem to be as distant as ever, and it hurts me inside. It's like I try so hard and all I really want him to do is to meet me halfway but he can't eevn seem to do that. I'm at the point now where it's like I'm just tired of trying. Really I am. I love my dad and all I ever wanted was to be close to him but it seems like that will never happen. As of late I've found myself in the middle of a battle between my heart and my brain. I also feel like I'm wasting my time with certain people. It's like they reel u in just enough to keep u there, but they will never let u in the boat. (My fishing analogy bc I'm from East Texas, lol) I just don't know what to do anymore. If I go then I'll be hurt, but If I stay I'll continue to hurt. Right now I feel like just walking away and never looking back. But yeah there's an update for yo ass.