Ruby Red Slippers, Wishing Upon a Star, and Dreams Coming True
Out of the fifty plus pairs of shoes I have, I have yet to get a pair of ruby red slippers. I could just click the heels and go home...but where is home? Everyone has found a place, but me. I just feel so lonely all the time and nobody can understand that. I have friends, I have family, but I am consumed with loneliness. I don't want to bring everybody down with me, I fear pushing people away. I fear the people that I have learned how to love running away from me, walking out of my life. What the fuck would a pair of magical shoes do? There is no place I fit in! No place I am wanted! No place I can call home. If I wished upon a star I would wish to wake up a different person whose body can function properly. Who doesn't need to get all drugged up to know who she is. Who isn't so irritable or overly emotional. I haven't been out for a while...just carefree and enjoying myself. That was what tonight was supposed to be about. My room mate along with other friends forgot about me tonight. I had been saying all week that I wanted to spend time with them, and they all went without me. What about me is so forgetable? People forget about me or plans they have with me all the time? Why is that? They say if you forget something then it must not be important. I guess taht explains it all. My dream coming true would be for things to be different. Just different.
"Sometimes I just feel numb on the inside. I get up and go about my day to appease everybody else, it's like putting on a play. Sometimes people swear they can see right through you, but can they? How can they know the your world through their eyes?"
"Sometimes I just feel numb on the inside. I get up and go about my day to appease everybody else, it's like putting on a play. Sometimes people swear they can see right through you, but can they? How can they know the your world through their eyes?"