[one shot] No Regrets
Title: No regrets
Pairings/Characters: Tottsu/Kitayama
Rating: NC-17
A/N: This is part of the Kame Number One AU. It's one of the "Onsen Specials" that take place when all the Shokura hosts and some of their customers go on a trip to the onsen. Hasshi has left the club to do something different with his life, just as Totsuka wanted. He wished for Hasshi to be happy and safe, away from the night life. But he now feels lonely and confused so he decides to go and talk with Kitayama who was his favourite before Hasshi's arrival.
Tottsu is standing in front of the room remotely wishing to go back. He is asking himself if he should finally open that door. He wants to talk with Kitayama, he wants to make things clear and lastly thank him for all his unconditional help. But somehow it feels wrong doing it now. Not because Hasshi isn’t there anymore, it’s not that. Totsuka knows how he secretly wants things to turn this night. But he is ashamed because it is wrong to feel something like that. It is definitely wrong. What if Kitayama could read all in his face like he usually does? He doesn’t want him to think he’d just like to take advantage of the situation. But indeed, that’s what he’s doing.
While he was trying to gather the courage to slide that door open, it suddenly opened by itself revealing Kitayama’s not at all surprised face.
“Are you coming in or do you want to sleep in the hallway?”
“I-I was...”
“Actually, come with me. Kame is sleeping in this room, but I guess I can keep an eye on him from the room next door.”
Totsuka follows Kitayama quietly in another room. The lights are off and Kitayama doesn’t turn them on, walking in and sitting on the futon on the floor.
“Are you going to sleep?” asks Totsuka a bit worried.
“Well, I know it sounds unrealistic if I say so, but I’m really not that sleepy at all. Did you want something by the way? I guess sleeping in Kawai and Goseki’s room is a bad idea. I don’t mind sharing this room. All the others should be busy by now.” Kitayama sprawls on his back and stares at the ceiling.
“I want to talk with you.” whispers Totsuka.
“Quit with that serious tone. What is it about?”
“I wanted to thank you. For all your help in the last few weeks. And for always being considerate about my feelings.”
“Woah that sounds so honest coming from you!” Kitayama jumps up to sit.
“I’m not joking Kitayama. I seriously... owe you a lot.”
“You don’t owe anyone anything. Aren’t we friends? Friendship doesn’t work that way.” smiles Kitayama standing up and putting his hands on Tottsu’s shoulders.
“Kitayama... I don’t know what would I be without you.”
“I guess... miserable? He he... no, I’m just being a bit conceited.”
“No, it’s true. You know how much I’ve been depending on you since Hasshi has left?”
“Well, I know you love him. It must really hurt despite the fact you’ve always played the mature character.”
“You know me well. Better than anyone else.”
“Uhm... I guess so? But again, maybe I’m overestimating myself.” smirks Kitayama.
“Do you think it’s mean if I just want to hug you now? I mean... having still feelings for Hasshi and all.”
“Hey, aren’t you a bit too serious? Since when you worry so much about moral and stuff?”
“But I... I don’t want you to think I only want to use you, or hurt you. Aren’t we friends?”
“Shota, do you like me?”
“I do. I like you.” Tottsu’s eyes beam with honesty.
“Isn’t that enough already? Why would I care if you like someone else more then me? I’m an host, I’m here to make you happy.” grins Kitayama.
“You stupid!” Tottsu just throws his arms around him and squeezes him tight. Kitayama grabs Totsuka’s face between his palms and stares at him.
“Just stop thinking, it’s better. You can be harmful when you think too much.”
“I just...”
“Shut up I said.” whispers Kitayama, leaning to press his lips on Totsuka’s mouth. Totsuka doesn’t try to rebel and instead just responds to the kiss wholeheartedly. He can tell Kitayama wants this like he does. Whichever the silent agreement is, they both know they’re not forcing any feeling into it. The feelings are there, they are just... different. And the strongest thing between them right now is trust.
They keep on kissing roaming on each other’s skin or hair readily with their hands. They get closer and start to grind their hips against each other.
“So, the usual sir? You can have me if you want...” smirks Kitayama, breaking the kiss but staying as close as possible to the other guy’s lips. Totsuka rubs his nose against Kitayama’s.
“You’re really not sleepy today, are you?” laughs Totsuka. “If you insist, maybe I’ll have your mouth then...”
“As you wish.” whispers Mitsu beginning to slide down, taking away as much fabric as possible from Tottsu’s body. Tottsu quickly unties the knot and lets the yukata drop at his feet. Then, while Kitayama is busy tasting his neck with quick kisses, Tottsu pulls apart the other’s yukata, revealing Mitsu’s shoulder line. Kitayama takes his arms out of the top part of his yukata, but leaves the bottom part tucked in the belt. They both drop down, and crawl over the futon just behind them. Kitayama starts kissing Totsuka’s skin on his chest, in a teasing way, brushing his delicate spots to make him shiver in pleasure.
“Mi-Mitsu can you...?”
Kitayama raises his head and takes a look at Totsuka’s pleading expression. He knows Totsuka doesn’t like being teased and wants to get on with it as soon as possible. And he usually was the one doing all the teasing. Mitsu smiles and starts licking his nipple. He can feel Totsuka’s erection brushing against his stomach and Totsuka’s efforts not to move his hips to get some relief against his skin.
“Oh fuck you!” yelled Totsuka pushing Kitayama’s head down against his cock.
“All right, I get it. You want to play hard right?”
“Just get on with it.”
“That’s not the polite way of asking.”
“The hell. C’mon!” whines Totsuka but without warning Mitsu slides his cock in his mouth, all at once. Totsuka moans loudly.
“Fuck you Kitayama!” says Totsuka staring down at him. Kitayama gives him a look like he wanted to answer that it’s pretty much what he’s doing. It feels so warm inside Kitayama’s mouth and his soft lips are something Totsuka has always loved. Totsuka just starts pushing harder into Kitayama’s mouth clasping his hair gently enough to give him directions. As if Kitayama needs it. He knows exactly how to drive Totsuka crazy, that’s why he starts rubbing with his thumb on the sensitive skin just behind his balls. Totsuka moans, pleasure drifting throughout his body. At that point Kitayama stops sucking him and comes up rubbing Totsuka’s cock with his hand. He pushes their cocks together, a few strokes and he’s hard again. He keeps on rocking his hips against Tosuka’s, his hand clenched on their erections.
“Do you want to continue fucking my mouth or...?” he asks while panting excited. Totsuka just reaches for Kitayama’s cock and grabs him, pulling it apart from his own.
“Why do you ask? First you stop, than you ask?” laughs Totsuka.
They keep on jerking each other. They move closer to kiss, leaving as less space between them as possible.
"I like it like this. I like feeling you close." whispers Totsuka.
"What else do you like?" smiles Kitayama moving his hand faster.
"I like biting your lips, I like you looking so great when you lose control. I like you losing control like that."
"Shota... It's time you lose control now."
Kitayama catches Tottsu's mouth with a possessive kiss. He gets even closer, he moves his other hand around Tottsu’s body like he wants to chase something out. Tottsu just moans at the way Mitsu is stroking him. He’s not sure he’s doing a great job on him anymore, he’s too close to his limit to realize if his hand is actually moving like Kitayama likes.
"Open your eyes Shota!" whispers Mitsu in a low voice against Totsuka's lips. Tottsu obeys. But what he sees is too much for him. The look on Mitsu's face, streaks of hair on his face, sweat shining on his skin. Tottsu feels the urge of closing his eyes again. Kitayama grabs his face vehemently and rubs his thumb on Tottsu’s cheek.
“Look at me!”
They are both panting loudly. Totsuka keeps on staring at Kitayama’s eyes, trying with all his might not to close his eyes and then he moans when he finally comes. He doesn’t leave Kitayama’s cock though, even if he’s hardly moving now, but Kitayama grabs his hand with his own and starts thrusting harder, coming soon before Totsuka even realizes he was moving his hand. Kitayama then reclines on his back, not even caring about the mess they did on themselves and the futon.
“Oi, come here.” says Kitayama trying to drag Totsuka down grabbing his arm gently.
Totsuka just doesn’t move from his sitting position. Kitayama just gives up.
“Why can’t this be enough? Why do I feel like this?” Totsuka words are barely audible, but Kitayama still hears them.
“You’re not going to cry are you?” Mitsu asks worried. “There’s nothing wrong, Tottsu. Nothing at all. We just...”
Totsuka turns around and smiles.
“You’re my best friend Kitayama.”
“...are you telling me you are not regretting everything that has just happened by any chance? How can I deal with you not being the responsible type anymore?” jokes Kitayama.
“I never had regrets with you.” Totsuka leans down and places a finger on Kitayama’s nose. “You’re a pretty good host, by the way!”
Thanks for reading. Comments are always appreciated.
Pairings/Characters: Tottsu/Kitayama
Rating: NC-17
A/N: This is part of the Kame Number One AU. It's one of the "Onsen Specials" that take place when all the Shokura hosts and some of their customers go on a trip to the onsen. Hasshi has left the club to do something different with his life, just as Totsuka wanted. He wished for Hasshi to be happy and safe, away from the night life. But he now feels lonely and confused so he decides to go and talk with Kitayama who was his favourite before Hasshi's arrival.
Tottsu is standing in front of the room remotely wishing to go back. He is asking himself if he should finally open that door. He wants to talk with Kitayama, he wants to make things clear and lastly thank him for all his unconditional help. But somehow it feels wrong doing it now. Not because Hasshi isn’t there anymore, it’s not that. Totsuka knows how he secretly wants things to turn this night. But he is ashamed because it is wrong to feel something like that. It is definitely wrong. What if Kitayama could read all in his face like he usually does? He doesn’t want him to think he’d just like to take advantage of the situation. But indeed, that’s what he’s doing.
While he was trying to gather the courage to slide that door open, it suddenly opened by itself revealing Kitayama’s not at all surprised face.
“Are you coming in or do you want to sleep in the hallway?”
“I-I was...”
“Actually, come with me. Kame is sleeping in this room, but I guess I can keep an eye on him from the room next door.”
Totsuka follows Kitayama quietly in another room. The lights are off and Kitayama doesn’t turn them on, walking in and sitting on the futon on the floor.
“Are you going to sleep?” asks Totsuka a bit worried.
“Well, I know it sounds unrealistic if I say so, but I’m really not that sleepy at all. Did you want something by the way? I guess sleeping in Kawai and Goseki’s room is a bad idea. I don’t mind sharing this room. All the others should be busy by now.” Kitayama sprawls on his back and stares at the ceiling.
“I want to talk with you.” whispers Totsuka.
“Quit with that serious tone. What is it about?”
“I wanted to thank you. For all your help in the last few weeks. And for always being considerate about my feelings.”
“Woah that sounds so honest coming from you!” Kitayama jumps up to sit.
“I’m not joking Kitayama. I seriously... owe you a lot.”
“You don’t owe anyone anything. Aren’t we friends? Friendship doesn’t work that way.” smiles Kitayama standing up and putting his hands on Tottsu’s shoulders.
“Kitayama... I don’t know what would I be without you.”
“I guess... miserable? He he... no, I’m just being a bit conceited.”
“No, it’s true. You know how much I’ve been depending on you since Hasshi has left?”
“Well, I know you love him. It must really hurt despite the fact you’ve always played the mature character.”
“You know me well. Better than anyone else.”
“Uhm... I guess so? But again, maybe I’m overestimating myself.” smirks Kitayama.
“Do you think it’s mean if I just want to hug you now? I mean... having still feelings for Hasshi and all.”
“Hey, aren’t you a bit too serious? Since when you worry so much about moral and stuff?”
“But I... I don’t want you to think I only want to use you, or hurt you. Aren’t we friends?”
“Shota, do you like me?”
“I do. I like you.” Tottsu’s eyes beam with honesty.
“Isn’t that enough already? Why would I care if you like someone else more then me? I’m an host, I’m here to make you happy.” grins Kitayama.
“You stupid!” Tottsu just throws his arms around him and squeezes him tight. Kitayama grabs Totsuka’s face between his palms and stares at him.
“Just stop thinking, it’s better. You can be harmful when you think too much.”
“I just...”
“Shut up I said.” whispers Kitayama, leaning to press his lips on Totsuka’s mouth. Totsuka doesn’t try to rebel and instead just responds to the kiss wholeheartedly. He can tell Kitayama wants this like he does. Whichever the silent agreement is, they both know they’re not forcing any feeling into it. The feelings are there, they are just... different. And the strongest thing between them right now is trust.
They keep on kissing roaming on each other’s skin or hair readily with their hands. They get closer and start to grind their hips against each other.
“So, the usual sir? You can have me if you want...” smirks Kitayama, breaking the kiss but staying as close as possible to the other guy’s lips. Totsuka rubs his nose against Kitayama’s.
“You’re really not sleepy today, are you?” laughs Totsuka. “If you insist, maybe I’ll have your mouth then...”
“As you wish.” whispers Mitsu beginning to slide down, taking away as much fabric as possible from Tottsu’s body. Tottsu quickly unties the knot and lets the yukata drop at his feet. Then, while Kitayama is busy tasting his neck with quick kisses, Tottsu pulls apart the other’s yukata, revealing Mitsu’s shoulder line. Kitayama takes his arms out of the top part of his yukata, but leaves the bottom part tucked in the belt. They both drop down, and crawl over the futon just behind them. Kitayama starts kissing Totsuka’s skin on his chest, in a teasing way, brushing his delicate spots to make him shiver in pleasure.
“Mi-Mitsu can you...?”
Kitayama raises his head and takes a look at Totsuka’s pleading expression. He knows Totsuka doesn’t like being teased and wants to get on with it as soon as possible. And he usually was the one doing all the teasing. Mitsu smiles and starts licking his nipple. He can feel Totsuka’s erection brushing against his stomach and Totsuka’s efforts not to move his hips to get some relief against his skin.
“Oh fuck you!” yelled Totsuka pushing Kitayama’s head down against his cock.
“All right, I get it. You want to play hard right?”
“Just get on with it.”
“That’s not the polite way of asking.”
“The hell. C’mon!” whines Totsuka but without warning Mitsu slides his cock in his mouth, all at once. Totsuka moans loudly.
“Fuck you Kitayama!” says Totsuka staring down at him. Kitayama gives him a look like he wanted to answer that it’s pretty much what he’s doing. It feels so warm inside Kitayama’s mouth and his soft lips are something Totsuka has always loved. Totsuka just starts pushing harder into Kitayama’s mouth clasping his hair gently enough to give him directions. As if Kitayama needs it. He knows exactly how to drive Totsuka crazy, that’s why he starts rubbing with his thumb on the sensitive skin just behind his balls. Totsuka moans, pleasure drifting throughout his body. At that point Kitayama stops sucking him and comes up rubbing Totsuka’s cock with his hand. He pushes their cocks together, a few strokes and he’s hard again. He keeps on rocking his hips against Tosuka’s, his hand clenched on their erections.
“Do you want to continue fucking my mouth or...?” he asks while panting excited. Totsuka just reaches for Kitayama’s cock and grabs him, pulling it apart from his own.
“Why do you ask? First you stop, than you ask?” laughs Totsuka.
They keep on jerking each other. They move closer to kiss, leaving as less space between them as possible.
"I like it like this. I like feeling you close." whispers Totsuka.
"What else do you like?" smiles Kitayama moving his hand faster.
"I like biting your lips, I like you looking so great when you lose control. I like you losing control like that."
"Shota... It's time you lose control now."
Kitayama catches Tottsu's mouth with a possessive kiss. He gets even closer, he moves his other hand around Tottsu’s body like he wants to chase something out. Tottsu just moans at the way Mitsu is stroking him. He’s not sure he’s doing a great job on him anymore, he’s too close to his limit to realize if his hand is actually moving like Kitayama likes.
"Open your eyes Shota!" whispers Mitsu in a low voice against Totsuka's lips. Tottsu obeys. But what he sees is too much for him. The look on Mitsu's face, streaks of hair on his face, sweat shining on his skin. Tottsu feels the urge of closing his eyes again. Kitayama grabs his face vehemently and rubs his thumb on Tottsu’s cheek.
“Look at me!”
They are both panting loudly. Totsuka keeps on staring at Kitayama’s eyes, trying with all his might not to close his eyes and then he moans when he finally comes. He doesn’t leave Kitayama’s cock though, even if he’s hardly moving now, but Kitayama grabs his hand with his own and starts thrusting harder, coming soon before Totsuka even realizes he was moving his hand. Kitayama then reclines on his back, not even caring about the mess they did on themselves and the futon.
“Oi, come here.” says Kitayama trying to drag Totsuka down grabbing his arm gently.
Totsuka just doesn’t move from his sitting position. Kitayama just gives up.
“Why can’t this be enough? Why do I feel like this?” Totsuka words are barely audible, but Kitayama still hears them.
“You’re not going to cry are you?” Mitsu asks worried. “There’s nothing wrong, Tottsu. Nothing at all. We just...”
Totsuka turns around and smiles.
“You’re my best friend Kitayama.”
“...are you telling me you are not regretting everything that has just happened by any chance? How can I deal with you not being the responsible type anymore?” jokes Kitayama.
“I never had regrets with you.” Totsuka leans down and places a finger on Kitayama’s nose. “You’re a pretty good host, by the way!”
Thanks for reading. Comments are always appreciated.