kage is gone
I don't want to get on the plane and go home because then the waveform will collapse and my baby boy will really be gone, not just be reported as dead.
I'm not dumb, I know he's dead, but there is a body waiting to prove it.
and there is so much more today today. we still have to fill the tank, drive to the airport, fly five hours, get picked up at the airport, find a gas station with an air pump, put air in the tire, and drive over an hour home.
and then I don't know what to do.
will I wash him? are we going to bury him? where? cremate him? also where? what would we do with his ashes? should I try to bury him on Sunday? Saturday in the morning? should I have a kitty cat wake? should I bury his favorite toy with him? should I keep it to remember him? should I write a memorial thing? I want to honor him, he was my cat. I miss him so bad.
so bad
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