Down the stretch they come...
I'm an optimist.
All summer I've been looking foward to college and having as much fun as possible. I'm sure a lot of people have been hit emotionally by someone going off someplace or the fact that they themsleves are leaving behind the beggining of their life. I really wasn't phased at all. Not at graduation, the only time that I got emotional was during the moment of silence for Laura & Bobby, not after, not all summer... until now. Summer's basically been me working and trying to have fun with my friends and love Sherrin. At times, it just seemed like there wasn't time to stop and think. Everythings been changing around me, I'm not just moving, the rest of my family is moving to this ginormous house in Hollis (meh). I haven't even really thought about the fact that when I come back, It won't even be to Merrimack. So after a few sleepness nights.. and sort of an unwanted experience tonight... I just fell apart. It's not just the friends, the co workers, and the fact that I'm leaving the house I've lived in all of my life.. permanently, It's Sherrin Leigh Miller. The girl I've completley fallen in love with, head over heels. The girl who's felt the say way about me for a little over nine months... the girl who's been there day in and day out (when possible) for those nine months, the girl always there to make me smile no matter what. This all started way back in the beginning of November. I had slowly decided that women were to shallow and deceptive to put your heart in to. I probably didn't have much self respect either. Then, a girl who had always .. sort of interested me said something I will never forget "I can't see me forehead!" .. quoting one of my favorite episodes of Spongebob. Love at first smile. She made me laugh and we hit it off. It started slow but now we've got something incredibly special. She's changed me as a person, I've matured and learned so much from her, its amazing. And this is why I broke down in to tears tonight, it suckerpunched me in the eye. I keep telling myself, and Sherrin, that everything will be OK and things are going to turn out fine. But it's harder then I thought. We've been apart a combined two weeks since we've been together and now I'm looking at seeing her once a week? Once every other week? It's going to be rough. (and for those of you assholes, we've spent more time together laughing with eachother than the thing you want to post about and make an ass out of yourself with) But now I'm calm and know I'm right. "It's all about keeping the faith." I can deal with change. This is a huge change, but I'm very adaptable and with time, we'll both get used to it.
And I'm not going to exclude any of my friends, no matter what they have said/done or what I have said/done. I've learned alot from them as well and have had such good times with them, I love it. I wish them the best of luck in what ever they do.. even if they dont't read this, and will keep in touch with them.
*sigh* One more full day in merrimack. i pretty much love all of you.
All summer I've been looking foward to college and having as much fun as possible. I'm sure a lot of people have been hit emotionally by someone going off someplace or the fact that they themsleves are leaving behind the beggining of their life. I really wasn't phased at all. Not at graduation, the only time that I got emotional was during the moment of silence for Laura & Bobby, not after, not all summer... until now. Summer's basically been me working and trying to have fun with my friends and love Sherrin. At times, it just seemed like there wasn't time to stop and think. Everythings been changing around me, I'm not just moving, the rest of my family is moving to this ginormous house in Hollis (meh). I haven't even really thought about the fact that when I come back, It won't even be to Merrimack. So after a few sleepness nights.. and sort of an unwanted experience tonight... I just fell apart. It's not just the friends, the co workers, and the fact that I'm leaving the house I've lived in all of my life.. permanently, It's Sherrin Leigh Miller. The girl I've completley fallen in love with, head over heels. The girl who's felt the say way about me for a little over nine months... the girl who's been there day in and day out (when possible) for those nine months, the girl always there to make me smile no matter what. This all started way back in the beginning of November. I had slowly decided that women were to shallow and deceptive to put your heart in to. I probably didn't have much self respect either. Then, a girl who had always .. sort of interested me said something I will never forget "I can't see me forehead!" .. quoting one of my favorite episodes of Spongebob. Love at first smile. She made me laugh and we hit it off. It started slow but now we've got something incredibly special. She's changed me as a person, I've matured and learned so much from her, its amazing. And this is why I broke down in to tears tonight, it suckerpunched me in the eye. I keep telling myself, and Sherrin, that everything will be OK and things are going to turn out fine. But it's harder then I thought. We've been apart a combined two weeks since we've been together and now I'm looking at seeing her once a week? Once every other week? It's going to be rough. (and for those of you assholes, we've spent more time together laughing with eachother than the thing you want to post about and make an ass out of yourself with) But now I'm calm and know I'm right. "It's all about keeping the faith." I can deal with change. This is a huge change, but I'm very adaptable and with time, we'll both get used to it.
And I'm not going to exclude any of my friends, no matter what they have said/done or what I have said/done. I've learned alot from them as well and have had such good times with them, I love it. I wish them the best of luck in what ever they do.. even if they dont't read this, and will keep in touch with them.
*sigh* One more full day in merrimack. i pretty much love all of you.