I like you...

Feb 27, 2009 22:40

I reeeeally like you.

That's the thing with me.I have a fucked up way of showing it. I get really quiet and shy around people I like and they always take a major offence or a dislike to it. And it's like grr don't u see?? I like u so much that i dnt wanna be loud or obnoxious or make an ass of myself in front of you. It's because I like you so much that im so shy and quiet. But I do try. I really do.
I can't help but be shy and coy.

It's all well for people saying OMG LYK JUS BE URSELFF BBZ. I am my fucking self. This is what myself decides to do!
So frustrating!
Cause all I want u to do is like me back and I dnt even wanna be shy around you!
I wanna be loud and be confident and be the outgoing person u want me to be
I just can't help it and it drives me insane as much as it might drive you mad.

It's confusing cause I dnt reeeally understand you.
I'm not over the top, but by this time, i've preettty much told you I like you a lot and if you haven't picked up on it yet it would be a shock!
Im being analytical ... but i just kinda don't get the same vibe back from ya. but that could just be me...

Thing about me is I over-analyze things. Not everything, but I worry a lot. Bout what people are thinking. Not like the public I mean what friends and people I like think of me. I could actually care less about what some of the public think of me!
But it's epecially what you think about me.

So in saying that, I break everything down and analyze what is meant by what you say.
I'm an absolute freak. And i can't help it.
I kinda came to the conclusion tonight that, if someone likes me, he needs to be blatently honest and say it to me. Or else i'm gonna think a million things. I don't do well at all with guessing games, cause 9 times out of 10 i'm gonna guess your not as interested as I want you to be and I fuck myself up wondering what you want.
Fucked up stupid little pernickity things like not puttin an 'x' at the end of a message (as a hypothetical example) is gonna make me try to think IS HE SAYING SOMETHING? IS HE TRYING TO THROW ME OFF OR SOMETHING?

And the thing is I can't help it.

I just.
Reealy.
Like you.

:(

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