Sep 27, 2005 21:51
Right now i have no idea what is going on..
I keep getting mixed messages from old friends and new ones
i dont know who to like or why
YOU
The fucking truth is i wanna forget about you so bad. But its getting really hard. Ive already deleted your screen names because i would keep checking your profile like its the only fucking way we can talk. Im so sick of the games and stupid shit we do. I never see you and its a huge problem because its like talking makes it worse and i dont think i can do it any longer. You think that its me not wanting to talk to you when in reality im just waiting. All it is, is a huge fucking hassle. Theres no point in trying anymore but, you were right it cant work that like. I dont know what the hell to do because i cant put anymore out. Twice ive spilled everything just for it to go back to it used to be. What it used to be was nothing. i honestly dont know how to talk to you anymore. whenever i say i wish i never met you is not to make you feel like shit, its fucking reality. if it never happened none of these feelings would have happend. i have no idea but you obviously mean something to mean when i keep coming back or cant stop thinking about you. i hate to love you
HER
not a new friend, one whose been around. we basicaly hit it off and i dont know what to say. your exactly what i need right now and whenever im around you or talk to you it just makes everything better. I cant tell if i really like you, if you like me or if im just trying to block stuff out. hopefully you'll just be my answer to everything
bestfriends?
10 years is a long time but why now does it feel weird. we always talk about love and if you never knew it how do you know its not right in front of your face. i cant tell if its just me or if its trying to go somewhere else. you make me wonder every fucking day
i hope this confuses the shit outta people because its got me beat....