Yet another nikki update
I was asked a very good question tonight. "why can't you get over her after all she has done to you?"
I wish I knew the answer to that. Something this awefull should take my love for her right out the window. I have to admit. Deep, deep deep within my heart, behind all my hatred for her, there's something there that still loves her. Why!? i don't want to. it just makes me hurt more. If i didn't than I wouldn't be caring about what she did to me, and I'd be totally over it by now. I wouldn't care if she fucked him, I would'nt care about how much she lied to me. I want it out! I always told her that I'd always love her and she always asked how that'd be true.
Don't get me wrong though. I hate her guts. I hate her so much. my hate for her outweighs the love by 1000000000%. I've never hated someoen so much in my life, yet loved someone so much at the same time...Fuck this shit man. This isn't cool.
I wish I knew the answer to that. Something this awefull should take my love for her right out the window. I have to admit. Deep, deep deep within my heart, behind all my hatred for her, there's something there that still loves her. Why!? i don't want to. it just makes me hurt more. If i didn't than I wouldn't be caring about what she did to me, and I'd be totally over it by now. I wouldn't care if she fucked him, I would'nt care about how much she lied to me. I want it out! I always told her that I'd always love her and she always asked how that'd be true.
Don't get me wrong though. I hate her guts. I hate her so much. my hate for her outweighs the love by 1000000000%. I've never hated someoen so much in my life, yet loved someone so much at the same time...Fuck this shit man. This isn't cool.