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I made my new year's resolution at four in the morning of January first. I made it right after i broke it, so i hope it counts, because nobody was up yet, so the day hasn't really started.
I'm not going to drink liquor anymore.
I didn't want to go to sleep yet, so i just sat there with the bottle of kahlua thinking maybe i should just drink myself to sleep or something, since i was pretty depressed already. Then i took a sip and felt nauseaus, but it was actually one of the better liquors i had because it tasted like coconut and not vomit with acid, but my stomach felt sick anyway, and i drank some water and tried to shake it off. I realized that i hate the taste of liquor and that i've only been drinking it because i like getting drunk, but for the past few times i really had to force myself into drinking, and i've come to realize that it's not worth it, so goodbye vomit with acid, so long.
I spent the last few hours of 2004 with two friends of mine waiting for phone calls from someone who blew us off. Then through some people we got semi-invited to a party with all these college kids. They had a flippin' bouncer, but we were small and unharmful enough to be let in because we were friends with "charlie", sure, just charlie's cousin's boyfriend's sister and friends. Anyway, the party itself was lame mostly because we didn't know anyone and they had terrible music. We hung out in the backyard for a while enjoying the delightful smell of marijuana while John, who was so very nice to try to make us feel more welcomed, came and tried to start a conversation with us. Except i don't think we felt like making new friends at this party yet. meh. it wasn't like he was drunk or stoned or anything either, i dunno, we were just getting ready to leave anyway, so we bid farewell and headed home, aileen's home that is.
12 am was spent in a moving car on the freeway to aileen's house listening to the Killers. It wasn't a bad start at all. I'm thinking it's a sign, that this year will be good, because we'll be going somewhere all the time. haha, gosh it has to be good! 2004 sucked. it can't suck two years in a role, it just can't!
I'm not going to drink liquor anymore.
I didn't want to go to sleep yet, so i just sat there with the bottle of kahlua thinking maybe i should just drink myself to sleep or something, since i was pretty depressed already. Then i took a sip and felt nauseaus, but it was actually one of the better liquors i had because it tasted like coconut and not vomit with acid, but my stomach felt sick anyway, and i drank some water and tried to shake it off. I realized that i hate the taste of liquor and that i've only been drinking it because i like getting drunk, but for the past few times i really had to force myself into drinking, and i've come to realize that it's not worth it, so goodbye vomit with acid, so long.
I spent the last few hours of 2004 with two friends of mine waiting for phone calls from someone who blew us off. Then through some people we got semi-invited to a party with all these college kids. They had a flippin' bouncer, but we were small and unharmful enough to be let in because we were friends with "charlie", sure, just charlie's cousin's boyfriend's sister and friends. Anyway, the party itself was lame mostly because we didn't know anyone and they had terrible music. We hung out in the backyard for a while enjoying the delightful smell of marijuana while John, who was so very nice to try to make us feel more welcomed, came and tried to start a conversation with us. Except i don't think we felt like making new friends at this party yet. meh. it wasn't like he was drunk or stoned or anything either, i dunno, we were just getting ready to leave anyway, so we bid farewell and headed home, aileen's home that is.
12 am was spent in a moving car on the freeway to aileen's house listening to the Killers. It wasn't a bad start at all. I'm thinking it's a sign, that this year will be good, because we'll be going somewhere all the time. haha, gosh it has to be good! 2004 sucked. it can't suck two years in a role, it just can't!