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Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife
Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake x4
And I'm telling you I'm...
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
Im in Traverse city, for three weeks., WoOT. i love it here. I miss everyone at home... but its so nice to be here. Today Manny and I were Brilliant. We got an 80 in our first round of the 5000 dollar classin and we ended up being 5th over all. I was so happy with my horsey. He is coming along SOOOOO well. Im very happy.
I miss kenzo... A LOT!
You know what else makes me happy?... Anthony. I miss him. I havent seen him in like a week. I think he going to come up to TC to watch me ride and spend some time with me. im very excited. I want him to come up at the same time allisons boyfriend, Alex, is coming up. I like him.
Katie Allison Heather and I went out to dinner tonight.. it was very fun. =] i love these people.
My mom is pissing me off... but im dealing with it.
I got new belts today. They are super cute. I almost got a puppy today... like iwas SO close. But my dad would be pissed at me, andd it would make taz so sad. I really wanted it though. it was probably the toughest descision ive had to make in a long tme. haha. The puppy was sooo freaking cute though.
FUCK I WON MONEY TODAY>> LIKE ALOT. yeahhhhh bitches.
OHHHHH and we got a gold cart for the next three weeks. Watch out peopleeeee.<3
immm soo tired.. but im waiting for anthony to call me. godddd i miss him....=[ blahhhh. Id do anything to just be laig in my bed cuddling with him right now. Ohh mannn those are the most perfect nights. Ever.
two more weeks here and then ill be homeeeee <3
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife
Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake x4
And I'm telling you I'm...
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake , im a fake, im a fake
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake, im a fake, im a fake, im a fake
Im in Traverse city, for three weeks., WoOT. i love it here. I miss everyone at home... but its so nice to be here. Today Manny and I were Brilliant. We got an 80 in our first round of the 5000 dollar classin and we ended up being 5th over all. I was so happy with my horsey. He is coming along SOOOOO well. Im very happy.
I miss kenzo... A LOT!
You know what else makes me happy?... Anthony. I miss him. I havent seen him in like a week. I think he going to come up to TC to watch me ride and spend some time with me. im very excited. I want him to come up at the same time allisons boyfriend, Alex, is coming up. I like him.
Katie Allison Heather and I went out to dinner tonight.. it was very fun. =] i love these people.
My mom is pissing me off... but im dealing with it.
I got new belts today. They are super cute. I almost got a puppy today... like iwas SO close. But my dad would be pissed at me, andd it would make taz so sad. I really wanted it though. it was probably the toughest descision ive had to make in a long tme. haha. The puppy was sooo freaking cute though.
FUCK I WON MONEY TODAY>> LIKE ALOT. yeahhhhh bitches.
OHHHHH and we got a gold cart for the next three weeks. Watch out peopleeeee.<3
immm soo tired.. but im waiting for anthony to call me. godddd i miss him....=[ blahhhh. Id do anything to just be laig in my bed cuddling with him right now. Ohh mannn those are the most perfect nights. Ever.
two more weeks here and then ill be homeeeee <3