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Things havent been this hard in a while.
Everything is coming back.
Last night i had a complete breakdown.. somehow everything i had saved was spread over my bed.
I dont think it has ever been so hard to go through it all before.
It was this time last year when things started.. wow. crazy,
There are only two people in this whole world i truely hate with every once of my body.
I cant believe someone could have that much nerve. Be that sick minded. Could hurt someone to that extent.
Its ridiculous.
Im finding myself getting in the same situations i was once in. Though im much more aware now.
I cant get myself out of it.
i hate it.
Im so scared because i know i cant go through all the shit ive already been through again.. i cant handle it.
Ive been so extremely busy lately. Im at the barn 6 days a week && i ride both horses everyday. Horse show season is coming.. and ohh man its going to be crazy. I have Three Stoney Ridge shows in a row in may.. three weeks. oh man. I hope school doesn get in the way.
Then i have 2 weeks in chicago and 2 or 3 weeks in Traverse City... and those arent including the other single shows here and there during the summer. Its going to be crazy. But im excited. i know im goign to do well with Manny =]. I love my horses. they are amazing. And they are coming along so well. I keep getting all these pamphlets and info. about collages wanting me to go there for horse back riding. It makes me feel good. But i know its not what i want to do in my life. It makes me sad that i only have 2 years left as a child... wow. it went by so fast. I know ill still ride as an adult though.
Rachels party was amazinggg. i love rachel, olivia, lindsay, lauren, and kaylee.. and everyone else there. Being a VIP was pretty amazing. i love rachel and im so glad she is happy right now. =] it makes me feel good cause i havent really been there much to make sure her life is going on track because im so busy in all my own stuff.
Amanda and Britt are going to florida.... im so jealous. Its going to be weird without them here.
but Me and Les have BIG plans.. ohh man im excited.
Seems like everyone has an erge to spend time with me. it feels good. Ive pretty much had an amazing week =]
I have new interests... && i must say im enjoying those people. they make me happy.
My horoscope says differently haha.
I got new flip flops today && new bathing suits the other day. Oh man i love them.. Like a whole lot. yayayay.
Spring break is in two daysss! I cant freaking waittttt! oh my gosh. im so done with school.
Im watching vh1.. yay for me.
hmmm i gotta go talk to my boyss ;] bye loves.
Everything is coming back.
Last night i had a complete breakdown.. somehow everything i had saved was spread over my bed.
I dont think it has ever been so hard to go through it all before.
It was this time last year when things started.. wow. crazy,
There are only two people in this whole world i truely hate with every once of my body.
I cant believe someone could have that much nerve. Be that sick minded. Could hurt someone to that extent.
Its ridiculous.
Im finding myself getting in the same situations i was once in. Though im much more aware now.
I cant get myself out of it.
i hate it.
Im so scared because i know i cant go through all the shit ive already been through again.. i cant handle it.
Ive been so extremely busy lately. Im at the barn 6 days a week && i ride both horses everyday. Horse show season is coming.. and ohh man its going to be crazy. I have Three Stoney Ridge shows in a row in may.. three weeks. oh man. I hope school doesn get in the way.
Then i have 2 weeks in chicago and 2 or 3 weeks in Traverse City... and those arent including the other single shows here and there during the summer. Its going to be crazy. But im excited. i know im goign to do well with Manny =]. I love my horses. they are amazing. And they are coming along so well. I keep getting all these pamphlets and info. about collages wanting me to go there for horse back riding. It makes me feel good. But i know its not what i want to do in my life. It makes me sad that i only have 2 years left as a child... wow. it went by so fast. I know ill still ride as an adult though.
Rachels party was amazinggg. i love rachel, olivia, lindsay, lauren, and kaylee.. and everyone else there. Being a VIP was pretty amazing. i love rachel and im so glad she is happy right now. =] it makes me feel good cause i havent really been there much to make sure her life is going on track because im so busy in all my own stuff.
Amanda and Britt are going to florida.... im so jealous. Its going to be weird without them here.
but Me and Les have BIG plans.. ohh man im excited.
Seems like everyone has an erge to spend time with me. it feels good. Ive pretty much had an amazing week =]
I have new interests... && i must say im enjoying those people. they make me happy.
My horoscope says differently haha.
I got new flip flops today && new bathing suits the other day. Oh man i love them.. Like a whole lot. yayayay.
Spring break is in two daysss! I cant freaking waittttt! oh my gosh. im so done with school.
Im watching vh1.. yay for me.
hmmm i gotta go talk to my boyss ;] bye loves.