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Words are only a fine line
I once called
Bullshit
Throw them at me like useless trash
Oh, or did i mean like those
rotten flowers that you gave me
That were made of bullshit "i love you" petals
Words are as loud
as that knife you cut
my heart up with.
But then bandaged the emptiness
with those cute little
patches of "baby this, baby that"
those cute little words,
How cute they are when you pair them up with the. . .
what was it?. . . .
oh, shit.
Its the kisses and hugs routine.
I can just feel those words
right out of your mouth.
Why, you should be honored for making that
line of bullshit a whole lot thicker.
You words are shadows
of your evil, but with little knives on them.
So that when you say them,
they somehow sting and make me bleed
. . . . or was that cry?
Same Thing
oh well.
They're not MY words,
oh no
my words have wings that can float around
and maybe reach your thought
that is,
if they can find their way through the darknes.
Words walk a thin line,
but never fall off . . . .
They just keep going
No matter how much it hurts
they get there, straight to my emotions
and then what? They dont stop.
They dont look before crossing.
They just run right through any wall i put up
. . . certainly not made strong enough.
No, they fear nothing......not even my feelings
So feel this thin line of Bullshit
i love you, too.
Today i saw a spider in my bathroom. So i killed it.
Katie and I went to the RH.. mmm yummy. then we went and played with amanda and leslie. I love girls.
My horse is broken. he gets an ultrasound on the 2nd. I hope he gets better soon :o( i miss him and im sick of riding all these stupid horses.
Last weekend was pretty amazingg. I played with all my loves. and on saturday Me, James, Katie, Amanda, Leslie, Jack, Brooke, Val, Bogdan, Jeff, Kyle, Vicki and some other people all played kidnap... then we hung at brookes. Then we all went to vickis for a while and played "guess who" and made brownies. Pretty amazing.
I fell off in my lesson on sunday.. but me, being so amazing and all, landed on my feet.
umm.. i did a bunch of stuff on friday too.. but i really cant remember.... OH WAIT! i went to brookes and me katie, amanda, leslie, brooke, gage, chris, and maz hung out. We watched Rent and me leslie max gage and chris played kempts... and me and leslie DOMINATED! it was prettty amazing. so yea.. thats pretty much all thats new.... hmm im bored. oh oh and if you read this.. i totaly am IN LOVE WITH YOU! mwah!
The world is crashing down around me
my hypnotic trance has ended
i see the beginning of my disaster
i fall
deep within the bowels of earth
six feet under
flora above growing to the sky
the blood ran
sweet and thick
out of my wrist
my neck
my heart
the hole in my head
leaks no more
for i am forever
crashing down
down into the depths of life
noexistant treaties
with beings eternal happiness
i flounder through my flesh
helpless without the light
i see the end
is all i see
forgeing onward
to reach the peak
i climb to the top
take the leap
i fall
down into the bowels of earth
no more do i have my mind
no more do i care
for myself
for her/him
for them
exisitence ceases to call my name
i hear the siren song of death
i feel the pain and taste the blood
as i fall down
into that sweet taste
i lick the tear from your face
as i die in your arms.