Rain
There's been a lot of rain lately. Looking outside into the rain reminds me about life's changes. Everyone running through the rain. It falls down, washing away the old grime and mess, renewing our world and invigorating life. I love the rain. The cool dampness that fills the air, a sort of almost low. Yet after it's over, the sun shines again, and the beauty of our world around us shines through. It gives me hope. Hope that someday this pain will be washed away, that I'll be able to forget parts of my past, and maybe understand why something so insignificant as my past hurts me so much. In the end, it doesn't matter too much. I'm resolved to take things as they go. I'm afraid that I'll never truly be happy. But perhaps that's my lot in life.
I was thinking. The only times I can remember truly smiling in a long time were around children. They're so oblivious most of the time. They never realize how terrible this world really is. I'm glad for that. Seeing my cousin Madeline laugh at my smile, giggle when I played peekaboo with her- it reminded me that not everything in this world isn't so bad as it seems. Remembering that, I'm resolved that I may never find someone who loves me. But I'm resolved to that, and perhaps everything may be ok in the end after all.
I was thinking. The only times I can remember truly smiling in a long time were around children. They're so oblivious most of the time. They never realize how terrible this world really is. I'm glad for that. Seeing my cousin Madeline laugh at my smile, giggle when I played peekaboo with her- it reminded me that not everything in this world isn't so bad as it seems. Remembering that, I'm resolved that I may never find someone who loves me. But I'm resolved to that, and perhaps everything may be ok in the end after all.