strength...

[pacojr]

there's a lot of times I find myself breaking down... I feel it welling up inside me... everything crumbling before me... but somehow... I pull it together... I'm not saying everyone can do this... but... for me... it's my will... I refuse to be broken... I refuse to fall... I refuse to stay down... I remember what I stand for... and what I want... even when something comes to disrupt who I am... I have to push through it... it's not in me to give up or give in... pull back maybe... but not give in... especially when I know others are counting on me to be the strong one...

I guess I think of myself as a real life tanker... they take all the abuse and shrug it off... they can be taken down... but they never stop rushing in before everyone... they are supposed to take the damage... not the others... it's their job... get hit so others don't...

... now what day is it?...

-ffej