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1420 on the sat..taking it again june 3..and the act june 10. my rec team actually won a game saturday, our first in like 15 h\games (thats almost two seasons)..but i enjoy this team. before with tom bliss and will baldwin and all those. guys like brinn, i was an outsider, the freshman. but now im a leader.. it feels good. laura is wonderful. i wish i could be more secure about these things though. im always doubting, always worried. i know i have no reason to be, but im so damn paranoid, like a lil queer. but its all good. im kinda bumbed about summer, cuz it looks like when im not working full time ill be out of town, so i wont get to hang out with anyone much. why am i expected to take all the responsibilities of becoming an adult but none of the benefits? it kills me to see lil jerks like hunter faustino and chandler robinson who never lift a damn finger for anyone but themselves and yet they're riding around in nice cars while i work full time moving lumber all summer except when im either on mission trips or driving my parents through the damn desert..again. but no car. i dont want them to put a dang penny towards it, i feel i should buy it on my own and now i can..but no but life is what you make it, so its all good. i feel pretty well about my APs and my lil lady friend. im starting to develop a taste for classical music. yo yo ma the celloist especially. it keeps me up late at night somehow

im ready to go, its gametime...HAZLO!