Falling apart
It feels that my life has been falling apart lately. Yeah, Tara and I broke things off a little over a week ago, and things have just gone downhill since then. I've tried to get things back together between her and I, but she made it quite apparent tonight that she doesn't think it's a good idea. I've decided to make some changes in my life, ones that I'm sure won't be that easy:
1. I'm deleting all my instant messangers. They're pointless, really. I usually just get on, and wait for Tara to get on, or the occasional person I haven't talked to in a few months just to say hi. So, as of today: Thursday, October 7th, 2004, I am deleting my messengers.
2. I'm getting back into computer-based projects. It's been forever since I've developed something / learned something on the computer. The last time I was productive was about a week after classes started and I tried to set up an ISP.
3. I'm getting a job at the casino. Custodian. Should pay something pretty nice. Night shift since I have hardly any reason to stay up during the days except to go to class and eat some food. I hope it doesn't mess with my online classes.
4. No more "friends". I figure that I don't really need them. If I want some sort of human interaction, I'll have work, and I can always go home to hang out with my family. Maybe if I move back into the dorms I'll become interested in human contact, but i'm zoning it out for now.
5. Deleting most people off my cell-phone. I might answer it once in a while if i reckognize the number, but it's highly doubtful. I'll leave my family on there so I know who's calling...other than that, good luck.
Alright, that all sounds pretty good to me. I'm off to go watch some TV and then feel like a drone while I do as much homework as I possibly can... I wonder if it's even worth posting here anymore since there shouldn't be anyone too interested in reading it... *shrugs* it entertains me for a while during the day, so I guess I'll continue untill that has faded away.
1. I'm deleting all my instant messangers. They're pointless, really. I usually just get on, and wait for Tara to get on, or the occasional person I haven't talked to in a few months just to say hi. So, as of today: Thursday, October 7th, 2004, I am deleting my messengers.
2. I'm getting back into computer-based projects. It's been forever since I've developed something / learned something on the computer. The last time I was productive was about a week after classes started and I tried to set up an ISP.
3. I'm getting a job at the casino. Custodian. Should pay something pretty nice. Night shift since I have hardly any reason to stay up during the days except to go to class and eat some food. I hope it doesn't mess with my online classes.
4. No more "friends". I figure that I don't really need them. If I want some sort of human interaction, I'll have work, and I can always go home to hang out with my family. Maybe if I move back into the dorms I'll become interested in human contact, but i'm zoning it out for now.
5. Deleting most people off my cell-phone. I might answer it once in a while if i reckognize the number, but it's highly doubtful. I'll leave my family on there so I know who's calling...other than that, good luck.
Alright, that all sounds pretty good to me. I'm off to go watch some TV and then feel like a drone while I do as much homework as I possibly can... I wonder if it's even worth posting here anymore since there shouldn't be anyone too interested in reading it... *shrugs* it entertains me for a while during the day, so I guess I'll continue untill that has faded away.