homework it's all i've been doing. except this hour i spend online when i get out of work, winding down to sleep. so i can wake up early and do more homework, or go to school, and do homework. i went to a superbowl party, and the entire time i sat with everyone, but was doing fucking homework! i've never had this much!! <[end homework rant>
i have had pneumonia since december, but january = no insurance for me. WICKED PISSAH. i've wondered why i have felt like shit, sleeping way more than normal, feverish, coughing.... i mean, i know i'm always sick, but now it makes sense. i can't wait to take a deep breath again. not even metaphorically! but that too. and i came down with some crazy virus where i threw up every 15 mins for 7 hours straight. owch! to top it all off i got a crazy tooth infection where they damaged a nurve and my face swelled up/bruised on one side. and the root canal had to be done in 2 parts. only 1 part has been completed. that pain also started in december and only now getting taken care of. <[being sick sucks, duh rant>
i miss friends, everyday i have to blow people off and it sucks. i go and see my boyfriend once or twice a week, but what do i do there? homework. wow. but at least we are very very happy with each other. and he understands, and he isn't a party type. i just feel bad that people ask me to hang out, and than they ask me where i am and i tell them i'm with him. it just means i'm laying in his bed doing work, instead of mine. <[end i miss hanging out non-stop and i'm sorry rant>
i wish i had free time. I don't even have the time to just 'surf the web' (except this 'i just got home from work time') i'm only not doing schoolwork cause its too hard to do at night! i want to learn about other things, study certain things. i'm really into trying to figure it is what i want out of this year, and what my beliefs are. it's weird when you don't know yourself, or your own thoughts. it makes it pretty damn difficult to do anything if you are always questioning yourself. <[end ...i don't even know rant>
