Positivity
So I put lots of colors in my journal now. It won't show up in the friends view but if you go to my Journal you can see ALL the colors. I thought that I needed some positivity because it seems like there is not a day in my life where EVERYONE is happy. Why can't for just one day everyone be happy but I know that is life. I myself am extremely happy because I have realized that God has a plan for me and if something is supposed to happen, he will make sure that I don't miss it. I have put my life in God's hands and I trust him. That doesn't mean that I am just going to assume that everything will happen without me doing anything, but it means that when something doesn't happen that I wish would I won't get upset as long as I did whatever I could because it just wasn't the time for it to happen. This is my quote that I just invented.....Life is like connect the dots because you don't know who it is going to turn out when you first begin, but if you put it in God's hand he will not settle for that simplicity, he will make it a masterpiece....
God has already hit me with so many experiences, almost all positive, but the little number of negative ones I have learned from and they have shaped me into a better person. For instance, my group of friends at school is the "good" kids that don't party, drink, and do drugs (at least not yet and I hope that they never do) but we probably have the most "issues" of any group of friends in the school. Not drama issues but serious issues that I never imagined would ever plaque us. I decided to be a peer conselour because it would help me to relate to human suffering and issues, but I must say that I have learned more from just being a good friend.
I can't believe this one guy is still stuck on my mind, it seems that when I get so close to "getting over" him he does something that convinces me that I don't want to get over him and that he is on my mind for a reason. I am not going to stress over it though. What is meant to be will happen with time and the best things come to those who least expect it. If good things always seem to be taken from you right when you get them, maybe God just didn't think that you were ready to handle them, or that it was not the right time in your life for you to have that experience or that person.
I know the person that I want to become and I know that God has an amazing life planned for me, I just have to trust him and trust the people around me, even if I end up getting hurt by some of them. I do believe that all people are good. I can't wait to have the experiences that God has planned for me but I know that I will also have to overcome the hardships that are also thrown my way. The future can be so scary sometimes.
God has already hit me with so many experiences, almost all positive, but the little number of negative ones I have learned from and they have shaped me into a better person. For instance, my group of friends at school is the "good" kids that don't party, drink, and do drugs (at least not yet and I hope that they never do) but we probably have the most "issues" of any group of friends in the school. Not drama issues but serious issues that I never imagined would ever plaque us. I decided to be a peer conselour because it would help me to relate to human suffering and issues, but I must say that I have learned more from just being a good friend.
I can't believe this one guy is still stuck on my mind, it seems that when I get so close to "getting over" him he does something that convinces me that I don't want to get over him and that he is on my mind for a reason. I am not going to stress over it though. What is meant to be will happen with time and the best things come to those who least expect it. If good things always seem to be taken from you right when you get them, maybe God just didn't think that you were ready to handle them, or that it was not the right time in your life for you to have that experience or that person.
I know the person that I want to become and I know that God has an amazing life planned for me, I just have to trust him and trust the people around me, even if I end up getting hurt by some of them. I do believe that all people are good. I can't wait to have the experiences that God has planned for me but I know that I will also have to overcome the hardships that are also thrown my way. The future can be so scary sometimes.