I bleed
When our relatives came the filed into the living room, and my mother instantly started crying when she saw her dad. And I remember thinking "She still has her dad." I just remember this sharp realization that the next time I grieve, my father won't be there to comfort me.
Every night I was in WA I went out with my friends and stayed out as late as I could to ensure I'd be so tired I'd have to fall asleep right when I went to bed. Now that I'm back at school I can't go out with my friends until the wee hours. Which means I can't fall asleep at night, which means I've had no other choice but to think about it. I've spent the past two hours just bawling, as I did last night, I can't think of anything I can take comfort in.
I feel completely alone.
Every night I was in WA I went out with my friends and stayed out as late as I could to ensure I'd be so tired I'd have to fall asleep right when I went to bed. Now that I'm back at school I can't go out with my friends until the wee hours. Which means I can't fall asleep at night, which means I've had no other choice but to think about it. I've spent the past two hours just bawling, as I did last night, I can't think of anything I can take comfort in.
I feel completely alone.