I'm supposed to walk away from here
I really need hurry up and just get over this whole Alicia thing as soon as i can.
I should have been more careful. Especially when some one who used to know them well tells you straight off "they hurt me and if your not careful they could hurt you too". Maybe one of theses days I'll start listening to all the good advice around me and chose some one who won't hurt me. For the past three months I'v been constantly dealing with indecision, instability, and insecurity from first Laura and now Alicia. It's driving me crazy, I know what I want but it's just out of my reach and nothing I can say will change anything. So frustrating that I find my self in the exact SAME position that I was in with laura AGAIN!! I need to find some one secure, some one actually stable, some one who will mean as much to me as I mean to them. ACK! FUCK! So goddamn depressing and confusing. maybe I'll just be alone for a while but I hate that even more!!
Other than that NOTHING is happening nothing at all, its like my life's on pause because of all this and I have no new years plans!!
I should have been more careful. Especially when some one who used to know them well tells you straight off "they hurt me and if your not careful they could hurt you too". Maybe one of theses days I'll start listening to all the good advice around me and chose some one who won't hurt me. For the past three months I'v been constantly dealing with indecision, instability, and insecurity from first Laura and now Alicia. It's driving me crazy, I know what I want but it's just out of my reach and nothing I can say will change anything. So frustrating that I find my self in the exact SAME position that I was in with laura AGAIN!! I need to find some one secure, some one actually stable, some one who will mean as much to me as I mean to them. ACK! FUCK! So goddamn depressing and confusing. maybe I'll just be alone for a while but I hate that even more!!
Other than that NOTHING is happening nothing at all, its like my life's on pause because of all this and I have no new years plans!!