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So, its been an incredibly hard night.. I have not been able to concentrate b/c Ive had 2 girls on my mind. One, thats been using me and hurting me for about a month and a half, and another one that I might just loose because my heart really hasnt been in it due to the evil one. This leads to some serios emotional turmoil.... the kind that makes you think that writing a paper due the next day on top of a myriad of other things that demand that you sleep...not matter.
So, in the end its been me composing an email to girl #2 thats alot more honest and opn *shudder* than it should be, which reflects the fact that im interested in her, and feel like we should give it something of a decent chance... and the other part consisted of stomach cramps and not having the guts to do what needed to be done, as far as #1 goes...ie resolving to cut all contact, period. But, around 2am...with nothing done for my paper, resolutions were taken, emails, sent, and asses went to bed...for a couple hours... Now, im still having stomach cramps, but at least im not hurting about #1... now im just agonizing about loosing #2...and re-reading what ive sent, hoping she will read it out loud (as all my email should be read) instead of just skimming it.
There... now i can try and finish the F****ing paper before i have to scram to the office at 7.
So, in the end its been me composing an email to girl #2 thats alot more honest and opn *shudder* than it should be, which reflects the fact that im interested in her, and feel like we should give it something of a decent chance... and the other part consisted of stomach cramps and not having the guts to do what needed to be done, as far as #1 goes...ie resolving to cut all contact, period. But, around 2am...with nothing done for my paper, resolutions were taken, emails, sent, and asses went to bed...for a couple hours... Now, im still having stomach cramps, but at least im not hurting about #1... now im just agonizing about loosing #2...and re-reading what ive sent, hoping she will read it out loud (as all my email should be read) instead of just skimming it.
There... now i can try and finish the F****ing paper before i have to scram to the office at 7.