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Because its a new year and all I've of course been engaged in the obligatory refelction about the previous year. I've read that the years from 20 - 25 are the most important/difficult in ones life. I can see why - they are full of transitions and changes; of choosing how to define yourself in the world and figuring out what you want and what you need.
If I had to define this past year it would be a year of transition. Its unreal to think that at the begining of this year, hell seven months ago, I was back in my nice little house of of purdue street worrying about classes. It quite literally seems like a world away from hear in the "real world" with office work and bosses. The past year is pretty much divided into two halves with a small interlude on phil's couch. The first half was composed of my final semester of college. In reality that semester was dominated by me completing my thesis of departmental honors credit. All in all it was an all right semester. I had only 2 days of class and worked late nights at the library so I had lots of time of my own to control. But I was starting to get bored of college park and a lot of my time was used up by my thesis which caused unbelievable amounts of stress. During this time I also graduated turned 22 got rejected a couple of times and made some new friends. Then came a small break in which I spent bumming at the phils apartment. It was not as restful or as long as I could of used. I got a job, ran into trouble in North Carolina, found out that I had a noncontagious form of TB, discarded plans on traveling to Europe, and generally worried about my future. In the middle of July I started this current phase of working at the BLS, and moved into a group house in DC. Since then, I've gotten used to the ebb and flow of office work, started seeing Becky, checked out a bunch of bars and clubs including the Big Hunt, Peyote, Cafe Japone (odd to think that we've known that place just since June ((credit to me for finding it)) considering the number of parties that have ended there) Lulu's, sung a lot of karaoke, learned to swing dance (sort of) and had a good amount of fun.
Yet despite all of that, the transition from school to work has not gone as well as I'd hoped. The 9 to 5 work schedule is exhausting and draining. I end up feeling I have to live twice as hard on the weekends to make up for the week. I also never find time really to advance my life or to get necessary tasks done. I also haven't met too many new people which is something I hoped for and was looking forward to doing. This is partially my fault because I haven't really pushed myself into meeting new people nor really done to many activities. I also to often find myself feeling listless and settle for watching tv instead of doing/initiating things but this is a product of me being lazy. I also have been unable to seriously retain money. Most worrisome is that this transition has left me uncertain of my future career ambitions with me not knowing what I want or where I should be heading to.
Other events worth noting that may have not been mentioned so far: My birthday party and party in october at my house, taxlo, NY City, thanksgiving with cousins, almost getting into two fights, learning to surf, hell this time last year i probably was coming back from disney world, surf club, trivia night, learning to snowboard, sailing, and amusement parks.
and to all the memories forgotten, I hope they weren't important.
If I had to define this past year it would be a year of transition. Its unreal to think that at the begining of this year, hell seven months ago, I was back in my nice little house of of purdue street worrying about classes. It quite literally seems like a world away from hear in the "real world" with office work and bosses. The past year is pretty much divided into two halves with a small interlude on phil's couch. The first half was composed of my final semester of college. In reality that semester was dominated by me completing my thesis of departmental honors credit. All in all it was an all right semester. I had only 2 days of class and worked late nights at the library so I had lots of time of my own to control. But I was starting to get bored of college park and a lot of my time was used up by my thesis which caused unbelievable amounts of stress. During this time I also graduated turned 22 got rejected a couple of times and made some new friends. Then came a small break in which I spent bumming at the phils apartment. It was not as restful or as long as I could of used. I got a job, ran into trouble in North Carolina, found out that I had a noncontagious form of TB, discarded plans on traveling to Europe, and generally worried about my future. In the middle of July I started this current phase of working at the BLS, and moved into a group house in DC. Since then, I've gotten used to the ebb and flow of office work, started seeing Becky, checked out a bunch of bars and clubs including the Big Hunt, Peyote, Cafe Japone (odd to think that we've known that place just since June ((credit to me for finding it)) considering the number of parties that have ended there) Lulu's, sung a lot of karaoke, learned to swing dance (sort of) and had a good amount of fun.
Yet despite all of that, the transition from school to work has not gone as well as I'd hoped. The 9 to 5 work schedule is exhausting and draining. I end up feeling I have to live twice as hard on the weekends to make up for the week. I also never find time really to advance my life or to get necessary tasks done. I also haven't met too many new people which is something I hoped for and was looking forward to doing. This is partially my fault because I haven't really pushed myself into meeting new people nor really done to many activities. I also to often find myself feeling listless and settle for watching tv instead of doing/initiating things but this is a product of me being lazy. I also have been unable to seriously retain money. Most worrisome is that this transition has left me uncertain of my future career ambitions with me not knowing what I want or where I should be heading to.
Other events worth noting that may have not been mentioned so far: My birthday party and party in october at my house, taxlo, NY City, thanksgiving with cousins, almost getting into two fights, learning to surf, hell this time last year i probably was coming back from disney world, surf club, trivia night, learning to snowboard, sailing, and amusement parks.
and to all the memories forgotten, I hope they weren't important.