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so here i am at ruby's house. it's warm here. it was really really fucking cold but now it is beautiful. i am half way through my elizabethan project that i can't seem to sit through. i'm doing much more work here than i would be doing at home though.
alexia?
i have been trying not to talk to andrew.
i talked to gabe today and we talked about andrew and i. it made me sad. we were different than all the rest. we were perfect, we were, i remember. but i have to let go of that now. i am a different person now. he is a totally different person, although enough like his old self to make me bleed inside. andrew will not be the last personi sleep with. andrew will not be the last person i ever love. i have so much more to offer than he is willing to see in me and i hate that. i am much more beautiful than what he sees.
damn it's hot in here. i need go change my shirt.
i am here now.
i am so tired of everything. i am so tired of school and being looked at like i should be doing more.
i'm tired of my mom drinking. i was supposed to go to kate's birthday party today and i didn't. when i left my mother was in her drunk/ child mood. she seemed so innocently sad when i left it broke my heart. i really do need to learn to be more cold.
hah hah....ice ice baby.
alexia?
i have been trying not to talk to andrew.
i talked to gabe today and we talked about andrew and i. it made me sad. we were different than all the rest. we were perfect, we were, i remember. but i have to let go of that now. i am a different person now. he is a totally different person, although enough like his old self to make me bleed inside. andrew will not be the last personi sleep with. andrew will not be the last person i ever love. i have so much more to offer than he is willing to see in me and i hate that. i am much more beautiful than what he sees.
damn it's hot in here. i need go change my shirt.
i am here now.
i am so tired of everything. i am so tired of school and being looked at like i should be doing more.
i'm tired of my mom drinking. i was supposed to go to kate's birthday party today and i didn't. when i left my mother was in her drunk/ child mood. she seemed so innocently sad when i left it broke my heart. i really do need to learn to be more cold.
hah hah....ice ice baby.