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Today I went to see The Dark Knight with my mom, and I whole-heartedly agree with what Mitzi said about it...ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. Heath Ledger was out of this world unbelievable. So good. Afterwards, my mom took me shopping and helped me find two appropriate interview outfits! I got a blue pattern dress, a nice black skirt, a white top (less boring than it sounds), and a silver necklace. She was a huge help and we had a lot of fun.
Tonight, I'm in a bit of a funk. I can't figure out what it is. I'm feeling pretty lonely and really missing The Awesome Dept., S.B., I.V., shananigans with Val...My mom's spending the night at her bf's, so I'm sure it's just being nostalgic while being home alone that's freaking me out...I don't know.
In job news, there is no job news yet, and I'm getting tired and frustrated. I spend the majority/all of my time on the internet, blah, blah, blah, but it's taking forever. So far, I have applied for these things:
*Emergency Dispatcher
*Part-time News Floor Crew at a tv station
*Medical Biller at a retirement home
*Part-time instructional aide at the adult school
*Help at two different tattoo shops
*Part-time Art Coordinator for the Boys and Girls Club (which I'm really excited about--I only turned in my app. on Friday so I'm gonna be really annoying and call them every day until they hire me)
*And I'm in the process of applying for a job as Library Media Tech. at the unified school district
Although on paper, it doesn't seem like I've turned in that many apps., I've spent countless hours searching online, calling places to see if they're even hiring, combing the classifieds and reading job-related articles that my family keeps giving me....yadda yadda yadda.
I don't think I told anyone, but one thing that's happened that's been a real relief is that my dad responded to my letter by sending a letter back. Surprisingly, he said he respected my decision/what I said and realizes that he's made a lot of mistakes throughout the years. He also said I deserve to have good self-esteem and he respects the fact that I need space from our relationship and need to work on those things for myself. Getting that letter from him felt really good. I no longer feel guilty and I feel like I can absolutely decide when to talk to him on my own terms. I feel like I can take all the time in the world. It's funny how 14 years of insecurity and hurt and anger were all [helped] immensely by just taking the step of honestly saying something, despite how scared I was at first. It makes life much less scary knowing that if I just speak up I can save myself a lot of hurt and frustration and be much, much happier, and I'm going to try to practice that a lot more often.
I think I might go watch I'm Not There because my mom told me Heath Ledger is phenomenal in that as well, and I've been in a strong Bob Dylan mood lately.
Love you guys. xoxo.
Tonight, I'm in a bit of a funk. I can't figure out what it is. I'm feeling pretty lonely and really missing The Awesome Dept., S.B., I.V., shananigans with Val...My mom's spending the night at her bf's, so I'm sure it's just being nostalgic while being home alone that's freaking me out...I don't know.
In job news, there is no job news yet, and I'm getting tired and frustrated. I spend the majority/all of my time on the internet, blah, blah, blah, but it's taking forever. So far, I have applied for these things:
*Emergency Dispatcher
*Part-time News Floor Crew at a tv station
*Medical Biller at a retirement home
*Part-time instructional aide at the adult school
*Help at two different tattoo shops
*Part-time Art Coordinator for the Boys and Girls Club (which I'm really excited about--I only turned in my app. on Friday so I'm gonna be really annoying and call them every day until they hire me)
*And I'm in the process of applying for a job as Library Media Tech. at the unified school district
Although on paper, it doesn't seem like I've turned in that many apps., I've spent countless hours searching online, calling places to see if they're even hiring, combing the classifieds and reading job-related articles that my family keeps giving me....yadda yadda yadda.
I don't think I told anyone, but one thing that's happened that's been a real relief is that my dad responded to my letter by sending a letter back. Surprisingly, he said he respected my decision/what I said and realizes that he's made a lot of mistakes throughout the years. He also said I deserve to have good self-esteem and he respects the fact that I need space from our relationship and need to work on those things for myself. Getting that letter from him felt really good. I no longer feel guilty and I feel like I can absolutely decide when to talk to him on my own terms. I feel like I can take all the time in the world. It's funny how 14 years of insecurity and hurt and anger were all [helped] immensely by just taking the step of honestly saying something, despite how scared I was at first. It makes life much less scary knowing that if I just speak up I can save myself a lot of hurt and frustration and be much, much happier, and I'm going to try to practice that a lot more often.
I think I might go watch I'm Not There because my mom told me Heath Ledger is phenomenal in that as well, and I've been in a strong Bob Dylan mood lately.
Love you guys. xoxo.