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So...here i am at my desk attempting to write an essay that has been the thorn in my side for the past month and still....nothing, absolutely fucking nothing....im at the point where im on the verge of insanity, and this in itself is driving me insane......what to do what to fricken do....Its severe writers block that im suffering from and a shear lack of interest in the topic that i have to be writing about, though i maintain that the topic i decided on was/is the best from the worst.....
and its not as if the essay is due like on monday but im freaking out because usually i would have something down on paper now and would be in the process of editing.....rather i find myself having trouble engaging with the incredibly dense theories that are coming out of these academics, that at times sound like complete wankers....AAARRRGGGHHH.....
my flatmates assure me that this could be due to the recent 'trauma' i have experienced, which is valid, but to what extent can i and should use that as an excuse for the lack of cerebrial functioning on my part????
Im at a total loss with this stupid assessment.....
in other news though, my cousin arrived safely from chile on tuesday morning. My aunt in chile had a complete freak out when my cousin neglected to call her from her stop over in Argentina, and when we called her from the airport in sydney she was a nerous wreck....kinda funny, and yet a sad sad family trait that we unfortunately carry (its quite irrational dont ya think....i mean read the above...)
also i dont know if i posted about this before, but I have decided to contest the charges that i was given by the damn Police on april 12th. It was a bit of a scarely moment as even on the eve of the deadline to send the forms in or pay the money, the group still didnt really know collectively what was going to be done. But at the end of the day, a majority of us have decided to contest the stupid stupid stupid charges....so watch this space when i actually get called up to court....
I still dont have a job which is making life a hell of a lot harder and yet interesting all at the same time. However my boss from the museum has come back from his work in Cyprus, so i am going to be racking up some more hours at the museum during the next few days which will help with things, you know just the basics like food and shit.....But still no real weekend work which is really annoying....am I that unemployable??? I know the answer to that is in the negative, but what weighs up against me is the fact that my fucking uni hours are just soo FUCKED!!!!!! I mean really they could all be squished into 2 full days (3 at the most) rather they are spread over four days which makes me very undesirable to prospective employers, its really shitty.....
what makes matters worse, is what will happen to me when im actually in the workforce. Thanks to the forum that was put on by the uni's public issues unit (or something along those lines) and the student workers network, i now have a better understanding of how fucked up the new work legislation really is. It amazes me how much both sides of politics have really down played the potential effects of these radical changes. AND THEY ARE RADICAL....no matter how much johnnie howard or any other of his stupid cronies state the contrary, these laws are highly radical and will completely change the face of the australian workforce. However by utilising rhetoric that includes phrases such as "family friendly" people are stupidly duped in by government. Its truly disgusting. what these esentially do is take the negoitating power away from employees, leaving them in the utmost vulnerable position at work. And whilst the government has stated that people wont just be fired, this is a blatant lie, as the legislation places so much more power with the employer. So if they dont happen to like the way you speak, or the way you chew your food.....bye bye.....i
Its not a real nice picture that is being painted by this , but then again so is everythin about the Howard government - VSU, work choices, immigration, they are all part of this stupid and draconian attempt at silencing each and everyone of us......well as if we are all going to go sliently into the night....fuck that for a joke......