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[p_roman]

Sometimes i wake up and the world is so small that its falling into itself....
Its like one of those tea biscuits that old ladies dunk in their tea
they soak up so much of the liquid that they just crumble...
thats what the world is like
and there is nothing i can do about it
its all worthless and without end
it freaks me out

there are days i wake up when the world is so vast
and im nothing
and what i do is nothing
im a dot
myself and my place in it is insignificant
and it feels as if im going out of my mind
my brain about to burst
so i stay in
refused to see others

Then there a mornings i wake up and i dont feel
anything
at all
Im numb, and i cant move
is that i cant move, or dont want to move
i forget
there is nothing to feel for
so i just ly and stare
Its out of duty that i get up and get going
but they're just motions
I sometimes visualise impaling myself on something sharp
its a terrible scene and people are shocked
but that way i could say that at least at my death
i felt
i wasnt numb
i wasnt fractured