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(as im crying i write this)
i thought i was having one of the best days today until after school when i went over to shelbi's house. cuz today is her birthday! well in my note to shelbi i was talking about lucas and sean just happened to read it. he was like "i talked to lucas today" and i asked him about what... but he just said i didnt need to know. so i just thought nothing of it... then after sean steven and justing left i was like to shelbi "gosh i wish i knew what lucas said to sean" and she said... well he told us while you were in the kitchen and then i got excited cuz i knew she would tell me and i asked in a hurry what he said. and shelbi said that sean asked lucas if he was going to ask me out and he said no... i was soo sad i was about to sry right there but i hate getting all emo in front of people. so i just held back my tears even though inside my heart felt like it had been stabbed and shot a few hundred times. but then shelbi was like "you cant tell them i told you cuz sean didnt want to tell you cuz he knew it would have hurt you." i just smiled and said ok.
yea so now im crying and this is one of the shittiest days ever... not to mention that shelbi and lacey were also crying over boys. god i didnt know i like him soo much. im just happy to know that he didnt want to hurt me either by telling me. but i kinda wish he did.
i thought i was having one of the best days today until after school when i went over to shelbi's house. cuz today is her birthday! well in my note to shelbi i was talking about lucas and sean just happened to read it. he was like "i talked to lucas today" and i asked him about what... but he just said i didnt need to know. so i just thought nothing of it... then after sean steven and justing left i was like to shelbi "gosh i wish i knew what lucas said to sean" and she said... well he told us while you were in the kitchen and then i got excited cuz i knew she would tell me and i asked in a hurry what he said. and shelbi said that sean asked lucas if he was going to ask me out and he said no... i was soo sad i was about to sry right there but i hate getting all emo in front of people. so i just held back my tears even though inside my heart felt like it had been stabbed and shot a few hundred times. but then shelbi was like "you cant tell them i told you cuz sean didnt want to tell you cuz he knew it would have hurt you." i just smiled and said ok.
yea so now im crying and this is one of the shittiest days ever... not to mention that shelbi and lacey were also crying over boys. god i didnt know i like him soo much. im just happy to know that he didnt want to hurt me either by telling me. but i kinda wish he did.