[Fic] Just A Kiss Goodnight, Rated: T, Fandom: Sailor Moon, Chapter: 6/120
Just A Kiss Goodnight
Set: Gold
Theme: Walk Away
6/120
By: Usagi Carter
Last Revised: July 9, 2011
Summary: It was one of the hardest decisions he’d ever had to make…
Rating: T
Setting: Post Stars
Character(s): Mamoru/Usagi
Author's Note: Since I came up with a huge list of themes a couple years ago for a livejournal community I was once part of, I figured what better way than to get back into writing SM one theme at a time. There's a long list of the themes, twelve sets with ten themes each - that's 120 different themes. Each set is colored coded, but I may jump around, so pay careful attention to the themes ;). For a full list of the themes, you can visit my power rangers home page - it's under the "Fun Stuff" page. A link can be found on my profile. Or you can email me, I likes email ;)
Disclaimer: I don’t own SM, lots of other people do!
Dedication: To Ang, Baine, Alicia Blade, Loki, and the countless other friends, fans and authors who've inspired me over the years.
“Some choices we live not only once but a thousand times over, remembering them for the rest of our lives.” -- Richard Bach
It was the hardest thing I have ever, ever done in my life; which is saying a lot, considering I’ve done a lot of hard things over the years. In fact, I would even venture to guess this was, for me, harder than breaking up with Usako due to dreams from my future self or making my original decision regarding this phase of my life. Just when this were getting to a peaceful, normal place in our lives - Galaxia and Chaos were defeated, the world was safe, and the Starlights had gone back to wherever it is they came from - I made one of the hardest decisions of my life.
I decided to walk away from it all, again, and see what I could make of myself in the States. The first time I made the decision, months ago, it was with an innocent thought that I would go, Usako would be safe here with the girls, and I’d come back ready to finally start working on our life together. Unfortunately for me, that decision was ripped out of my hands thanks to Galaxia. And I know the girls all figured, especially Rei and Minako, I’d stay put after what we’d been through. In fact, I’m pretty sure even the Outers assumed I wouldn’t go. But somehow, deep down, I think Usako was expecting it. It kills me to know she was already preparing herself for me to leave again, when I was still wavering over the choice.
“I’m a big girl now, Mamo-chan. I can survive whatever comes my way,” she softly whispered as we lay on my bed, the sheets covering our nude bodies to the waist. Her hands were tucked under her cheek, her big blue eyes staring directly into mine. I had one arm tucked under me and the other wrapped around her, holding her close to me.
“I know you are, and I’m well aware of the fact that you can handle anything, Ms. Moon,” I teased gently, watching a small smile dance across her lips. “I’m just scared that if I go again…”
“I’ll be here when you get back,” she responded. “I’m not going anywhere, but you need to do this for you, and I’m not going to stand in your way, no matter how much I want you with me always.”
“I know, Beloved,” I uttered, blinking back the sudden onslaught of tear. It’s something I have only ever really done in her presence.
She finally reached out and touched my face, as if she were memorizing every detail of it, as she wiped away the wetness from my cheeks. “Come what may, we’ll deal with it when and if we have to.”
Part of me sincerely wished she’d begged me to stay, but deep down, I knew after that conversation she wouldn’t. Usako has always, always put our dreams, our hopes, and our desires before her own. She’s encouraged her friends to follow their own paths, even if it means they’ll be leading them away from her. I knew she would do no less with me, and still, it killed me inside to pack my bags again and walk away from her. Part of me wondered if in the time I was gone, things would change so drastically that when I came back, I wouldn’t have been the only one to walk away.
There’s an old saying, that if you love something enough, set it free, if it comes back to you, it was always meant to be, if not, it was never yours to begin with. One of my biggest fears in leaving my life in Tokyo was that perhaps Destiny and the Future weren’t as certain as I always believed, and that the life I was told, at eighteen, I would someday lead was all a beautiful dream.
My fears were unfounded, because two years later, when I got off the plane at the airport, I experienced the best feeling in the world. Standing not far from my gate, were a group of much loved faces. Motoki and Reika stood off to one side, while the Senshi were to the other. And smack dab in the middle, wearing a pink tank top and a blue jean mini skirt was the loveliest vision I have ever, ever seen. She’d grown in my absence, both physically and emotionally, but she was right there, right where she promised me she would be. I may have had to temporarily walk away from the life we had been building, but I knew she never had, and never would.
Set: Gold
Theme: Walk Away
6/120
By: Usagi Carter
Last Revised: July 9, 2011
Summary: It was one of the hardest decisions he’d ever had to make…
Rating: T
Setting: Post Stars
Character(s): Mamoru/Usagi
Author's Note: Since I came up with a huge list of themes a couple years ago for a livejournal community I was once part of, I figured what better way than to get back into writing SM one theme at a time. There's a long list of the themes, twelve sets with ten themes each - that's 120 different themes. Each set is colored coded, but I may jump around, so pay careful attention to the themes ;). For a full list of the themes, you can visit my power rangers home page - it's under the "Fun Stuff" page. A link can be found on my profile. Or you can email me, I likes email ;)
Disclaimer: I don’t own SM, lots of other people do!
Dedication: To Ang, Baine, Alicia Blade, Loki, and the countless other friends, fans and authors who've inspired me over the years.
“Some choices we live not only once but a thousand times over, remembering them for the rest of our lives.” -- Richard Bach
It was the hardest thing I have ever, ever done in my life; which is saying a lot, considering I’ve done a lot of hard things over the years. In fact, I would even venture to guess this was, for me, harder than breaking up with Usako due to dreams from my future self or making my original decision regarding this phase of my life. Just when this were getting to a peaceful, normal place in our lives - Galaxia and Chaos were defeated, the world was safe, and the Starlights had gone back to wherever it is they came from - I made one of the hardest decisions of my life.
I decided to walk away from it all, again, and see what I could make of myself in the States. The first time I made the decision, months ago, it was with an innocent thought that I would go, Usako would be safe here with the girls, and I’d come back ready to finally start working on our life together. Unfortunately for me, that decision was ripped out of my hands thanks to Galaxia. And I know the girls all figured, especially Rei and Minako, I’d stay put after what we’d been through. In fact, I’m pretty sure even the Outers assumed I wouldn’t go. But somehow, deep down, I think Usako was expecting it. It kills me to know she was already preparing herself for me to leave again, when I was still wavering over the choice.
“I’m a big girl now, Mamo-chan. I can survive whatever comes my way,” she softly whispered as we lay on my bed, the sheets covering our nude bodies to the waist. Her hands were tucked under her cheek, her big blue eyes staring directly into mine. I had one arm tucked under me and the other wrapped around her, holding her close to me.
“I know you are, and I’m well aware of the fact that you can handle anything, Ms. Moon,” I teased gently, watching a small smile dance across her lips. “I’m just scared that if I go again…”
“I’ll be here when you get back,” she responded. “I’m not going anywhere, but you need to do this for you, and I’m not going to stand in your way, no matter how much I want you with me always.”
“I know, Beloved,” I uttered, blinking back the sudden onslaught of tear. It’s something I have only ever really done in her presence.
She finally reached out and touched my face, as if she were memorizing every detail of it, as she wiped away the wetness from my cheeks. “Come what may, we’ll deal with it when and if we have to.”
Part of me sincerely wished she’d begged me to stay, but deep down, I knew after that conversation she wouldn’t. Usako has always, always put our dreams, our hopes, and our desires before her own. She’s encouraged her friends to follow their own paths, even if it means they’ll be leading them away from her. I knew she would do no less with me, and still, it killed me inside to pack my bags again and walk away from her. Part of me wondered if in the time I was gone, things would change so drastically that when I came back, I wouldn’t have been the only one to walk away.
There’s an old saying, that if you love something enough, set it free, if it comes back to you, it was always meant to be, if not, it was never yours to begin with. One of my biggest fears in leaving my life in Tokyo was that perhaps Destiny and the Future weren’t as certain as I always believed, and that the life I was told, at eighteen, I would someday lead was all a beautiful dream.
My fears were unfounded, because two years later, when I got off the plane at the airport, I experienced the best feeling in the world. Standing not far from my gate, were a group of much loved faces. Motoki and Reika stood off to one side, while the Senshi were to the other. And smack dab in the middle, wearing a pink tank top and a blue jean mini skirt was the loveliest vision I have ever, ever seen. She’d grown in my absence, both physically and emotionally, but she was right there, right where she promised me she would be. I may have had to temporarily walk away from the life we had been building, but I knew she never had, and never would.