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I could see it in their eyes what it could mean, what it meant really, more than just a missing season. No one's mentionned it but you could see it in their eyes, the question that everyone wants to ask but is too afraid to know the answer.
I said yes to the procedure. If only because I want this pain to go away. As for my career we'll see about it later. They're saying I can get back on bike in about two weeks and then maybe 8 to 12 weeks before being back in full practice. We'll know by then I guess.
I've been tossing and turning all night, trying to see if I've made the right decision.
At first glance it seems like a good decision, no more pain.
But looking through it all, knowing what they want me to leave behind if it doesn't work completely, it seems almost too much.
Its hard to give up almost 20 years of memories when your mind is still ready for it but your body is telling you no I don't want to anymore.
I feel like an old man complaining about back problems. An old man wandering through memories, recollections and pictures, trying to remember youth.
When this is all over, maybe it'll be time to make new kinds of memories.
I said yes to the procedure. If only because I want this pain to go away. As for my career we'll see about it later. They're saying I can get back on bike in about two weeks and then maybe 8 to 12 weeks before being back in full practice. We'll know by then I guess.
I've been tossing and turning all night, trying to see if I've made the right decision.
At first glance it seems like a good decision, no more pain.
But looking through it all, knowing what they want me to leave behind if it doesn't work completely, it seems almost too much.
Its hard to give up almost 20 years of memories when your mind is still ready for it but your body is telling you no I don't want to anymore.
I feel like an old man complaining about back problems. An old man wandering through memories, recollections and pictures, trying to remember youth.
When this is all over, maybe it'll be time to make new kinds of memories.