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I'll never really be as good/hot/wonderful/caring/open/available/great/amazing/talented as everyone else.
But I do really like my voice. I swear it.
I will always get jealous if i see someone i love talking to someone better than i am.
I will always want more than what I have, because usually what i have isnt really what i want.
I will always try to be sexy/funny/cute/sweet/nice even though I cant stand someone/dont feel like it/wanna die on the inside cause its just one of those fucking days.
I will always get books from the library and begin to read them, but inevitably stop halfway through.
I'll always go to bed too late for my own good.
I will always hate my job as long as it is not what I have been wanting since birth.
I will always want something new.
I will always somehow sound selfish although I'm not and never really will be. (I just appear that way)
Ill always be trying something new on, just to see how it looks.
Ill never really get over the abuse my mom put/s me through everyday.
I shall be forever emotionally scarred from my father.
I'll always have to deal with what genes I got dealt and how I handle/d things.
Ill give up anything just so i can make my certain someone smile.
I wouldnt care if i had to support someone (well, i may alittle, if it is only out of sheer like, i dunnoness) as long as i loved them and they loved me back.
Ill always be afraid someone really isnt watching.
I will forever have to deal with being burntout at 17 *shrugs* but at least I havent been...shot?
I will always have to deal with the shock i felt at knowing Id think i was 47 if i didnt know my real age.
Ill have to deal with not being with my first love.
Ill have to deal with every little shit thing in my life for the rest of my time on earth this time.
But still, after all the abuse everyone likes to show me for some reason...
I'm desperately wanting to talk to you. Even if you will think I just dont want my problems solved, and i cant really say anything to you like this ^. I still want to so badly it hurts. But I'm not going to tell you. And I'm so lame for thinking I have to compete for you. Even my friend said so. I hope im stupid for thinking that. I HOPE TO FUCKING DEATH THAT I AM NOT FUCKING BEING PLAYED AGAIN and youre doing this with a billion other girls...or even guys.
I hope that maybe it could work out even if it would be long distance *distance means nothing, remember?*
But that would be stupid, right?
fuck emo. we are
our own brand of
love/snugs/kisses.
did that make sense?
didnt think so. oh well.
It DID make sense.
PS- i still want a new lj
PPS-people should stop making fun of people and their music. You dont like it? Then dont listen to it fuckers. Music and musical expression is the most important form of life and thinking and everything. Tied in first with love. so STFU
But I do really like my voice. I swear it.
I will always get jealous if i see someone i love talking to someone better than i am.
I will always want more than what I have, because usually what i have isnt really what i want.
I will always try to be sexy/funny/cute/sweet/nice even though I cant stand someone/dont feel like it/wanna die on the inside cause its just one of those fucking days.
I will always get books from the library and begin to read them, but inevitably stop halfway through.
I'll always go to bed too late for my own good.
I will always hate my job as long as it is not what I have been wanting since birth.
I will always want something new.
I will always somehow sound selfish although I'm not and never really will be. (I just appear that way)
Ill always be trying something new on, just to see how it looks.
Ill never really get over the abuse my mom put/s me through everyday.
I shall be forever emotionally scarred from my father.
I'll always have to deal with what genes I got dealt and how I handle/d things.
Ill give up anything just so i can make my certain someone smile.
I wouldnt care if i had to support someone (well, i may alittle, if it is only out of sheer like, i dunnoness) as long as i loved them and they loved me back.
Ill always be afraid someone really isnt watching.
I will forever have to deal with being burntout at 17 *shrugs* but at least I havent been...shot?
I will always have to deal with the shock i felt at knowing Id think i was 47 if i didnt know my real age.
Ill have to deal with not being with my first love.
Ill have to deal with every little shit thing in my life for the rest of my time on earth this time.
But still, after all the abuse everyone likes to show me for some reason...
I'm desperately wanting to talk to you. Even if you will think I just dont want my problems solved, and i cant really say anything to you like this ^. I still want to so badly it hurts. But I'm not going to tell you. And I'm so lame for thinking I have to compete for you. Even my friend said so. I hope im stupid for thinking that. I HOPE TO FUCKING DEATH THAT I AM NOT FUCKING BEING PLAYED AGAIN and youre doing this with a billion other girls...or even guys.
I hope that maybe it could work out even if it would be long distance *distance means nothing, remember?*
But that would be stupid, right?
fuck emo. we are
our own brand of
love/snugs/kisses.
did that make sense?
didnt think so. oh well.
It DID make sense.
PS- i still want a new lj
PPS-people should stop making fun of people and their music. You dont like it? Then dont listen to it fuckers. Music and musical expression is the most important form of life and thinking and everything. Tied in first with love. so STFU