Dec 25, 2005 01:05
My eyes are galzing over with sleep.
The main thing I wanted for christmas I got, and the Biggest thing I wanted, I may never get.
I never expected for my life to belike this. I know many people say this when they are...well, I know they say it, but it is true.
it's my last christmas before I turn 18. Again I'm alone for it. No cookies this year even. Not even a Vampiric Santa.
Ah well, seems this xmas everyone is being jilted.
My...self and eyes feel so different from what they felt like just 24 hours ago. and 15 hours ago. and 4 hours ago.
My grandma gave me a very great gift this year. Its a gift box set of stationery. Pink background with different colored leaves and a secret compartment. Also a quote which I have fallen for. "More than kisses, letters mingle souls." and its true.
Said by John Donne. hah, funny name. but, nonetheless a true quote.
Ah, wallowing again. Think think think. Cant stop it seems.
I'm tired as fuck but i refuse to sleep. I'll be destroyed tomorrow but I dont give a damn.
everytime an eyelash falls out, I wish for music and love. Why dont they come true?
I wonder. Are wishes supposedly the miracles we hear about? Because if they are, I'm rather disappointed.
Goodbye goodbye goodbye.
Sleeping cats are adorable and peaceful like swimming fish.
Tmobile screwed me over and it seems like things wont change. Screwing seems to be everyones favorite thing to do lately. I wonder why.
Ugh, no words no words.
I can not take anymore words.
Nor can I take the sudden crashing movement of a gorgeous noise that halts me in my thoughts and makes my stomach flip.
(In my head I'm listening to "all of this past" by sarah bettens)