dear dominique.
oh. i hate this.
i hate having to try to explain it.
cause it only makes it worse.
and i'm really sick of acting like i'm fine.
cause i'm not.
i don't know why i feel this way.
and i wanna give up.
sorry this is emo.
but i'm so sick of pretending.
i think i'm getting mono.
nathaniel wheeler is funny.
cheerleading has seriously and literally become life. i think about it or am doing it 24/7.
i miss my best friend ben and don't want him to die in a hurricane. i just wanna see him right now.
i miss my best friend larissa and don't want her to ... idk? eat tofu??
i'm only going to school because i like mrs. appold.
i miss ben??
i wish i wasn't this selfish or scared.
i wish i could leave.
i'm so pathetic.
i hate having to try to explain it.
cause it only makes it worse.
and i'm really sick of acting like i'm fine.
cause i'm not.
i don't know why i feel this way.
and i wanna give up.
sorry this is emo.
but i'm so sick of pretending.
i think i'm getting mono.
nathaniel wheeler is funny.
cheerleading has seriously and literally become life. i think about it or am doing it 24/7.
i miss my best friend ben and don't want him to die in a hurricane. i just wanna see him right now.
i miss my best friend larissa and don't want her to ... idk? eat tofu??
i'm only going to school because i like mrs. appold.
i miss ben??
i wish i wasn't this selfish or scared.
i wish i could leave.
i'm so pathetic.