I guess I will update this because I'm bored....
In every life, there comes a point where you just have to think about the future, and stop dwelling about the past.
The fact is, I need to just clear my mind of what makes it hard to make something of myself. There is no worse feeling than when I look back and think about everything I've done wrong. Possibly because I don't see much I've done right. I am a pessimist, and therefor, everything I think of is almost always negative.
Now I must admit, that I have made my share of mistakes, I've treated people badly, and for all I have done, I am sorry. I have been selfish even when I don't want to be. Deep down emotionally I want all the emotions that I have dreamed of, yet I don't see everything as it is. Sometimes I just have to wonder about myself. How I know my mind is capable of great things, yet some of the more basic understandings of others just slip my mind.
I want that perfect world. Deep down no matter what may occur, I still believe there is a possibility that everyone can come together and make the world as good as it could be. Unfortunately the more I experience during this life I am living, the more I believe this world will never work out their differences. Too many leaders are greedy and powerhungry. Politics in the United States is just another part of large corporations. If I could do one thing in the rest of my years, I would most appreciate my life if I could accomplish that feat. There are certain rights every human being should have, and too many times we stray away from that belief system, and spoil the value of life with ill-thoughts and misunderstood morality. Too many times, we create religious battles that could be easily stopped by just developing a basic moral principal that the world can understand. It is not impossible for everyone to agree that any person has the right to live and not be killed, just like one would appreciate themselves. You cannot expect them to all treat each other fairly, but in time, people will stop basing morals on skin color, language, ethnicity, the past, and understand that with each new generation of humans, there is that chance that they might just understand and prove to the world, that we can all live as equals.
I am not a perfect person, but over the last two days, I have decided that I must become something greater than what I already am, and I need to ask for forgiveness for what I have done on others, just as I shall forgive others.
The fact is, I need to just clear my mind of what makes it hard to make something of myself. There is no worse feeling than when I look back and think about everything I've done wrong. Possibly because I don't see much I've done right. I am a pessimist, and therefor, everything I think of is almost always negative.
Now I must admit, that I have made my share of mistakes, I've treated people badly, and for all I have done, I am sorry. I have been selfish even when I don't want to be. Deep down emotionally I want all the emotions that I have dreamed of, yet I don't see everything as it is. Sometimes I just have to wonder about myself. How I know my mind is capable of great things, yet some of the more basic understandings of others just slip my mind.
I want that perfect world. Deep down no matter what may occur, I still believe there is a possibility that everyone can come together and make the world as good as it could be. Unfortunately the more I experience during this life I am living, the more I believe this world will never work out their differences. Too many leaders are greedy and powerhungry. Politics in the United States is just another part of large corporations. If I could do one thing in the rest of my years, I would most appreciate my life if I could accomplish that feat. There are certain rights every human being should have, and too many times we stray away from that belief system, and spoil the value of life with ill-thoughts and misunderstood morality. Too many times, we create religious battles that could be easily stopped by just developing a basic moral principal that the world can understand. It is not impossible for everyone to agree that any person has the right to live and not be killed, just like one would appreciate themselves. You cannot expect them to all treat each other fairly, but in time, people will stop basing morals on skin color, language, ethnicity, the past, and understand that with each new generation of humans, there is that chance that they might just understand and prove to the world, that we can all live as equals.
I am not a perfect person, but over the last two days, I have decided that I must become something greater than what I already am, and I need to ask for forgiveness for what I have done on others, just as I shall forgive others.