Pearl, I've just caught up on your LJ... and I'm so glad for your enjoyable getaway. I'm all for you talking to a counsellor too, I think it'll make you even more attuned to yourself (not that you aren't), and all of us are in need of that. And unlike over here, you can see one without any stigma attached (I wanted to rip a colleague's head off when she implied that folks with bipolar depression are stir crazy).
There are times I feel marooned and set adrift myself... but it's not because I don't know what I want. I do, but, well, you get the idea why. So go ahead and vent when there's a need to... and don't be ashamed or apologetic about it (at least your reasons are more valid than mine - I'm still in the safe, sheltered confines of Singapore). OK, I'm rambling. But whatever you do, don't make an enemy out of yourself.
Y'know woman, I think part of why you feel this way is perhaps you've had a couple of awesome, mind-blowing, productive recent years. When you're on a roll, it sucks to have things almost screech to a halt. So mebbe it's also the change of pace and lack (or reduction) of choices or options that's getting you down (that's just my stab in the dark). Besides the obvious reason of missing friends and family. Beg pardon for these cliches, but think of this period as a time for recharging your batteries... and that beats running on empty anytime!!
PS: Here's a scrap of news that hopefully makes you grin a little -- I bumped into Alvin Gan at Changi Airport when I was seeing my maid off. He asked about you and heard that you're in London. Told him you're visiting in January and he sends his regards. I dunno, for a few moments, I thought of him as a schoolboy asking about a one-time crush (esp with his bashful baby face!). Hehehe... I'm well and truly convinced he has a soft spot for you coz he never asked about La or anyone else for that matter (not even my kids!). Boo!
yes, attuned is probably the right word. I've already gone to see her twice, and although I'm not thoroughly convinced I'd want to do this reguarly - will only decide after coming back from Spore - it has been pretty fun, ha ha! Having a neutral space to just talk about yourself for one solid hour - quite a luxury!
Re Alvin: HAHA! Nah, it's because Khim emailed me recently because he said I somehow came up in conversation, and we've been catching up - so that's why I'm prob top of mind for Alvin right now - cos no doubt Khim has been feeding him with updates :) I told them I couldn't remember Paul Rosario's name cos you kept on calling him The Furby, HAHAHAHA!
Nooooo Furby didn't originate from me, that nick came from you -- "furby caught in headlights" remember???
btw, richard lord is alive and kicking -- he was a moderator at this year's writers' festival. he's really quite the respected figure in the local literary scene. heh... memories, eh?
HAHAH ok, so I didn't tell him who came up with it, but I told him about who couldn't stop saying it, hehehe... Khim agreed Paul looked like a furby anyway, hahaha. FURBY IN THE HEADLIGHTS, HahahahaHAHAHA!!
Of course I remember Richard LLLORD! I remember we used to gather in the stairwell for cigarettes and bitch and gripe about what we thought his salary was. I kinda miss the Paperclip days! I will never forget the amazing Tom Yam mee sua with the egg broken into it and the loverly fried fish bits. Wah lau...
There are times I feel marooned and set adrift myself... but it's not because I don't know what I want. I do, but, well, you get the idea why. So go ahead and vent when there's a need to... and don't be ashamed or apologetic about it (at least your reasons are more valid than mine - I'm still in the safe, sheltered confines of Singapore). OK, I'm rambling. But whatever you do, don't make an enemy out of yourself.
Y'know woman, I think part of why you feel this way is perhaps you've had a couple of awesome, mind-blowing, productive recent years. When you're on a roll, it sucks to have things almost screech to a halt. So mebbe it's also the change of pace and lack (or reduction) of choices or options that's getting you down (that's just my stab in the dark). Besides the obvious reason of missing friends and family. Beg pardon for these cliches, but think of this period as a time for recharging your batteries... and that beats running on empty anytime!!
PS: Here's a scrap of news that hopefully makes you grin a little -- I bumped into Alvin Gan at Changi Airport when I was seeing my maid off. He asked about you and heard that you're in London. Told him you're visiting in January and he sends his regards. I dunno, for a few moments, I thought of him as a schoolboy asking about a one-time crush (esp with his bashful baby face!). Hehehe... I'm well and truly convinced he has a soft spot for you coz he never asked about La or anyone else for that matter (not even my kids!). Boo!
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Re Alvin: HAHA! Nah, it's because Khim emailed me recently because he said I somehow came up in conversation, and we've been catching up - so that's why I'm prob top of mind for Alvin right now - cos no doubt Khim has been feeding him with updates :) I told them I couldn't remember Paul Rosario's name cos you kept on calling him The Furby, HAHAHAHA!
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btw, richard lord is alive and kicking -- he was a moderator at this year's writers' festival. he's really quite the respected figure in the local literary scene. heh... memories, eh?
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Of course I remember Richard LLLORD! I remember we used to gather in the stairwell for cigarettes and bitch and gripe about what we thought his salary was. I kinda miss the Paperclip days! I will never forget the amazing Tom Yam mee sua with the egg broken into it and the loverly fried fish bits. Wah lau...
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