i duno..
sometimes i think if all of this trouble is worth it- and when i see that you are really over me.it hurts too much- i dont think i deserve feeling like this..all i ever did was try to like you..we were such great friends..and i dunno bout you..but i like having friends like that..and wen i lose them..it hurts..its obvious you're doing fine without me..and maybe you think other girls are better than me and can make you happier..but i can assure you that you're wrong..ive spent too many m o n t h s worrying about you..worrying if i should let go..or if i still had another chance..but i should already know that with my luck i wont find another guy that likes me like you did..another guy that will care about ME..and want to be with me..and he wont just drop me overnight..i dont like being me..i dont like who i am as a person..inside and out..if i could change..i would..drastically..-but the only thing i want to change right now is my feelings about you..if i could just convince myself that you are the jerk that you are..and if i just didnt care about you..then the world would be wonderful again..but i know that you arent a jerk..i know you mean well..and i know i like you..i like you way too much to let this all go..and i know im wasting my time..im wasting a whole year on you..but its worth it..my friends may get annoyed with me because i talk about this all the time..but im sorry..i dont have anything more interesting going on in my life..i dont have anything else to complain about..i do but its all stupid stuff that everyone goes through..and i think my life is terrible when i know im taking everything for granted..thats what i did with you..i thought ud always be there..and i never really took the time to think about what id do without you..but im surviving..i havent driven myself down "the wrong road"..and i didnt get all messed up like u did when you broke up with ur girlfriend..maybe i dont need you..maybe i never did..but you made me feel so good about myself..i was so confident and i didnt care what anyone else thought..but now im so insecure..i dont like what i see when i look in the mirror..no matter what anyone tells me..i just hate it..i hate everything about me..and i guess the thing i miss most about you is the safeness you brought to me..the comfort..i dont really know what im trying to say..but the only thing clear to me is that i still want you..and i always will