im fucking stupid
im so fucking STUPID today has not been my day for relationships first well... let start with the good stuff(not concerning the relationship things) the greatist thing happened to me which is very unusual i got to go see shinedown and the vocalist is my idol (fuck all of u that think theyre not fucking awesome because oblisoly u dont know a talented person when u see one) then i got home and my guitar was here i got a worlock limited edition and a coffin case for it -its the FUCKING SHIT- but newho then yesterday i went to reins's house and he showed me some things on guitar and now i know alot more than b 4 -screaming- yay ya but oh yea the bad things well it started when i saw one of my x's at her job i went there and told her that i saw her best freind and b/f they told me that she didnt so the thing that i broke up with her over and now i find out that she didnt do it and i am still fucking pissed about it i hit a fucking brick wallat the doller store (where she works) after finding out about that and got peices of fucking brick in my knuckles and my fore head casue all of u that know me know that when i get aggravated or pissed i hit myself in the forehead and i did and i happened to have brick on my fist but newho on top of that the girl that i like now ,well i called her and she had a "person" over there and he was fucking around with her and i know that she still likes me and im pissed about that casue she fucking with another guy and i cant tell if she is over me or not and those of u that know me well know who im talkin bout so PLEASE DONT POST HER NAME N E WHERE IF U POST AND DONT SAY N E THING TO N E ONE ELSE BOUT WHO IT IS I DONT WANT EVERyone TO KNOW BOUT IT JUST A SELECT FEW but yea thats bout how my day went but i want to jsut fucking die right now cause im so goddamn depressed is there no escape from all this i think im just living a life in hell casue i jsut realized that i fucked up twice in one try cause im so fucking stupid is there no reason to live but to be tortured and pllayed with like a fucking chess peice in a fucking monoply game -in other words the rules dont mix therefor there are none and u can fuck over whoever u want to and i hate when ppl take full advantage of that ITS FUCKED UP ALL OF U THAT DO THAT SHIT!!!!! its one of the most fucked up thing u can do and im not having n e tolerance for it n e more quoted by slipknot"fuck it all fuck this world fuck everything that u stand for" well thats bout all of my twisted life well thats alot to read so if u dont want to know what im talking bout then dont fucking read it well....im out later