This is burnout.

[p2wy]

I am tired of criss-crossing across the country.
I am tired of sweating through the day at work.
I am tired of having my world fall apart when I'm not watching.
I am tired of not having a soft place to light.
I am tired of waiting for better days to come.
I am tired of my past looking better than my future.
I am tired of being a square peg.
I am tired of being a burden to everyone I know.
I am tired of losing sleep.
I am tired of my deteriorating body.
I am tired of making excuses for myself.
I am tired of never seeing daylight.
I am tired of worrying about tomorrow.
I am tired of spinning emotional plates.
I am tired of being a disappointment.
I am tired of being so fucking "self aware."
I am tired of wanting better.
I am tired of being patient.
I am tired of not having any place that feels like home.