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I dont know what I want right now.
I love Jeff and in September it will be our 2 year mark of dating.
Jeff and I have been doing okay in our relationship. We have been fighting a lot and im sick of it. I just dont feel the passion like I used to. I dont want to makeout with him anymore. When we do start to makeout I am basically just waiting for it to be over.
Thats so bad for me to be saying and I do feel guilty about it.
I see him more as a friend and not a lover at the moment.
It bothers me because he is such a great guy and is really sweet.
The only thing is, I am still not over John. Yes, I know we broke up over two years ago.
John and I have been talking recently. He is such a strange guy.
We decided that we are going to meet up and have lunch together sometime this week. He has been sick with a cold so we had to postpone it. We may be meeting up tomorrow or on Friday.
Im fucking nervous. He says that he got over me 2 months after our breakup but it doesnt seem like it. If he was the one suggesting the hangout then that must mean something. A few months ago when we were on the phone I asked him if he missed me and he said he wouldnt answer that because I have a boyfriend. So im thinking that probably means he does miss me.
I dont know, I have just never felt a connection with someone like I did with him.
He said I dont have a chance with him but all of a sudden he is being nice to me. He goes through weird phases where he is an asshole and then really nice to me. Right now he is being really nice.
I dont know I feel like I am trying to win him back. His brother says he only says that he is over me because he is jealous that I have a boyfriend.
John still hasnt dated anyone since me and I was even his first girlfriend.
I dont know im just really confused right now and stressed out in life so I will just have to see how things go when we actually do hang out.
I love Jeff and in September it will be our 2 year mark of dating.
Jeff and I have been doing okay in our relationship. We have been fighting a lot and im sick of it. I just dont feel the passion like I used to. I dont want to makeout with him anymore. When we do start to makeout I am basically just waiting for it to be over.
Thats so bad for me to be saying and I do feel guilty about it.
I see him more as a friend and not a lover at the moment.
It bothers me because he is such a great guy and is really sweet.
The only thing is, I am still not over John. Yes, I know we broke up over two years ago.
John and I have been talking recently. He is such a strange guy.
We decided that we are going to meet up and have lunch together sometime this week. He has been sick with a cold so we had to postpone it. We may be meeting up tomorrow or on Friday.
Im fucking nervous. He says that he got over me 2 months after our breakup but it doesnt seem like it. If he was the one suggesting the hangout then that must mean something. A few months ago when we were on the phone I asked him if he missed me and he said he wouldnt answer that because I have a boyfriend. So im thinking that probably means he does miss me.
I dont know, I have just never felt a connection with someone like I did with him.
He said I dont have a chance with him but all of a sudden he is being nice to me. He goes through weird phases where he is an asshole and then really nice to me. Right now he is being really nice.
I dont know I feel like I am trying to win him back. His brother says he only says that he is over me because he is jealous that I have a boyfriend.
John still hasnt dated anyone since me and I was even his first girlfriend.
I dont know im just really confused right now and stressed out in life so I will just have to see how things go when we actually do hang out.