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So Jordan turned out to be a complete asshole. He told me that after a night like that he would be head over heels for the girl. He told me that when we did what we did he just didnt get any vibe. He said he was 'caught up in the moment'
I guess I was upset, just felt kind of used. Though it can never be a good start when you wake up after it feeling sick to your stomach wondering if what you did was right.
It was for the best I think.
Speaking of it I think I found a much better boy. I went out with a guy named Derek last night. We said we were gonna hang out as friends which is always good. So he snuck me over to his house and we were watching movies in his room and cuddling on his bed. Unlike Jordan he looked into my eyes and kind of climbed ontop of me and asked if he could kiss me. He was so amazing and I said yes. So we made out for a little bit. I feel so safe with him unlike that last guy. pssh. We then went back to my house to watch Disturbia and my brother watched it too. It was a good movie but I couldnt focus on it, just couldnt stop thinking about him.
Hes just like me. He doesnt like tattoos and would never get a piercing. Hes religious and wants to wait till marriage. Hes also not into drinking and smoking. He also didnt try to go past making out when we hung out. My shirt kind of came up and he pulled it down. At one point i thought he was trying to take off my shirt so i told him I didnt want to do that and he said thats not what he was going to do and then he asked me if I trusted him. I said yes and so he picked me up and carried me to the other side of the couch. Next thine we know its 2 in the morning and decide to go take a walk. We walked to the park and ended up making out in the playground and wet back to my house. He carried me into tehe guest bedroom with my legs around him and set me down. I just felt so safe with him and didnt have that worried feeling like I did when I was with Jordan. He seems to actually like me for me. He even says goodnight and goodmorning to me.
He rubbed my back at 3 am and I started to fall asleep and next thing I know he was snoring and it was the cutest thing ever. He ended up waking up and we made out again and he carried me into the other room and we kissed a while then he carried me to the kitched and set me on the counter. It was the most romantic thing ever.
So he left at 6 am. Basically he spend the night at my house.
Best thing? He wants a second date.
I guess I was upset, just felt kind of used. Though it can never be a good start when you wake up after it feeling sick to your stomach wondering if what you did was right.
It was for the best I think.
Speaking of it I think I found a much better boy. I went out with a guy named Derek last night. We said we were gonna hang out as friends which is always good. So he snuck me over to his house and we were watching movies in his room and cuddling on his bed. Unlike Jordan he looked into my eyes and kind of climbed ontop of me and asked if he could kiss me. He was so amazing and I said yes. So we made out for a little bit. I feel so safe with him unlike that last guy. pssh. We then went back to my house to watch Disturbia and my brother watched it too. It was a good movie but I couldnt focus on it, just couldnt stop thinking about him.
Hes just like me. He doesnt like tattoos and would never get a piercing. Hes religious and wants to wait till marriage. Hes also not into drinking and smoking. He also didnt try to go past making out when we hung out. My shirt kind of came up and he pulled it down. At one point i thought he was trying to take off my shirt so i told him I didnt want to do that and he said thats not what he was going to do and then he asked me if I trusted him. I said yes and so he picked me up and carried me to the other side of the couch. Next thine we know its 2 in the morning and decide to go take a walk. We walked to the park and ended up making out in the playground and wet back to my house. He carried me into tehe guest bedroom with my legs around him and set me down. I just felt so safe with him and didnt have that worried feeling like I did when I was with Jordan. He seems to actually like me for me. He even says goodnight and goodmorning to me.
He rubbed my back at 3 am and I started to fall asleep and next thing I know he was snoring and it was the cutest thing ever. He ended up waking up and we made out again and he carried me into the other room and we kissed a while then he carried me to the kitched and set me on the counter. It was the most romantic thing ever.
So he left at 6 am. Basically he spend the night at my house.
Best thing? He wants a second date.