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livejournal. haven't use in a while. miserable. normal, yes. analyzing it. selfdestructive. suicidal with no actual motivation. nothing is pleasing. was enjoying myself until recently. mood spiked. dont know what i want. i wanted to type want but my fingers typed meant. i feel like this needs to end. something does. or needs to progress. boredom. emptiness. im tired of being me.