"i couldnt care less about the way that you see me"
today i got ina scuffell with authority figures. lemme set it up. We decide to sit outside like we did in the beggining of the year, on the sidewalk..where we usually did. so some old hoe bag walks up from the parking lot and walks around us in the "mud" (wich there was none) and she starts talkin to us about how we are rude not to keep a path. keep in mind that she didnt even ask us to move. so she goes on about how we are rude, and i took charge of that situation. i was like "well if you wanted us to move ask, we were not being rude." and shes like ima go get mr funk (yea he'll do shit) and i said yea go ahead. alright so soon after my SS teacher walks around us to go to his car and i call over to him i say " mr rodgers did you mind walking around us?" and he was like of course not. so im like cool some one is on our side. alright then this next bitch comes over with nancy(an old fat women with gray hair and a whistle) and she says "i heard you were being very rude to some women that just came through here. you need to make a path for people trying to get through" and i told her the same thign i told the other bitch. then nancy says like the same thing, and tells us not to sit there and shes a hoe about it. they are just fuckin people who are to high up on themselves to admitt they are wrong, and like to think they can step all of over us since were "kids". fuckin hoes, god help me. if the weather is nice we are sitting out there, in the same fuckin place.
anyway had a bad couple of days. i have just been feeling horrible, mentally and physically. just been very exhausted, again mentally and physically.i just need fuckin someone special to tell me im not going crazy...that things will be alright...i always tell myself that, and i tell that to other people, and it usually works for them...not me..i have been tellin myself that for like a year and a half. shit started to suck when i made the fuckin worst mistake of my life...it all went downhill then...i just wanna be with her again...for my sake...and quite possibily her sanity....