birthday wishes
for my birthday, i wish i could actually do what i want. i wish that i didn't have to have a "grit my teeth and smile" hours-long awkward-fest with my mom and then actually do something fun later, in secret. and my dad can't even be at the stupid awkward-fest because greg is going to be there, and according to my mom that won't work out. so my birthday is basically all about my mom. ugh.
the only way to make it better, i suppose, is to invite friends. but i really feel like i have like, 3 friends. aside from my dad and phillip. so that's kinda lame too. plus my house is small and really messy. there's not really room for a party there. speaking of which, my mom is probably going to move everything around and make a mess and not clean it up like she always does, argh -_- sometimes i feel like i'm dealing with a dumb little kid who has to have her way and is irresponsible and completely ignorant of the feelings and concerns of others. as long as things are the way she wants them, everything is A-OKAY. ugh.
rant, rant, rant, complain, complain, regret not staying in berkeley.
invite friends over? now i feel like i really should...sigh.
the only way to make it better, i suppose, is to invite friends. but i really feel like i have like, 3 friends. aside from my dad and phillip. so that's kinda lame too. plus my house is small and really messy. there's not really room for a party there. speaking of which, my mom is probably going to move everything around and make a mess and not clean it up like she always does, argh -_- sometimes i feel like i'm dealing with a dumb little kid who has to have her way and is irresponsible and completely ignorant of the feelings and concerns of others. as long as things are the way she wants them, everything is A-OKAY. ugh.
rant, rant, rant, complain, complain, regret not staying in berkeley.
invite friends over? now i feel like i really should...sigh.