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So...
Tom and I are fighting.
It all started with me getting upset for basically no reason... I've been really emotional and crazy lately, which I acredit to my birth control.. I've decided to go off it, because I don't feel like myself and I find myself getting upset with Tom for one reason or another, and all the while knowing that Im being completely ridiculous and that my feelings dont even make sense. I wake up the next morning embarrassed with myself.
I feel really bad.. because I said a lot of things that didnt make sense/I didnt mean them this morning. I don't even know where they came from. And he's really upset with me.
And he's mad at me for going home too. He said "it must be nice to be able to go home, I dont have that option. And I stayed here for you."
...that comment pissed me off a little bit because I feel like he's holding me accountable for him staying in rochester, when I nearly begged him to go home for this exact reason. I really can't help the fact that I'm in a lot of money trouble and I need a job that I know will pay the bills. Plus I want to go on spring break this year. And I dont want to go into the fall in debt. The summer just didnt work out the way I wanted it to. But I'm trying to stay positive about it. Which is hard when it feels like he doesnt support my decision and doesnt want me to go home. He apparently thinks Im going to start hooking up with zac again or something, which is completely unfair and absurd.
I dunno, the whole situation is kind of upsetting.
Anyways I got my job at the factory back.. I'm going to be working third shift this time, which is obviously going to suck because its like, 11pm-7am... its going to require a lot of caffeine. And my sleep schedule will be messed up, but I will be able to see my family and eat dinner with them, unlike last summer.. I never saw them because I left for work before they got home. So I'm grateful for that. And I will have time during the day (after I get a few hours of sleep) to lay out in the sun and do other things during the day.
So I start working there july 11th. And I think my sister is going to work there with me. So I can take my breaks with her and carpool.
That's all I got right now.
Tom and I are fighting.
It all started with me getting upset for basically no reason... I've been really emotional and crazy lately, which I acredit to my birth control.. I've decided to go off it, because I don't feel like myself and I find myself getting upset with Tom for one reason or another, and all the while knowing that Im being completely ridiculous and that my feelings dont even make sense. I wake up the next morning embarrassed with myself.
I feel really bad.. because I said a lot of things that didnt make sense/I didnt mean them this morning. I don't even know where they came from. And he's really upset with me.
And he's mad at me for going home too. He said "it must be nice to be able to go home, I dont have that option. And I stayed here for you."
...that comment pissed me off a little bit because I feel like he's holding me accountable for him staying in rochester, when I nearly begged him to go home for this exact reason. I really can't help the fact that I'm in a lot of money trouble and I need a job that I know will pay the bills. Plus I want to go on spring break this year. And I dont want to go into the fall in debt. The summer just didnt work out the way I wanted it to. But I'm trying to stay positive about it. Which is hard when it feels like he doesnt support my decision and doesnt want me to go home. He apparently thinks Im going to start hooking up with zac again or something, which is completely unfair and absurd.
I dunno, the whole situation is kind of upsetting.
Anyways I got my job at the factory back.. I'm going to be working third shift this time, which is obviously going to suck because its like, 11pm-7am... its going to require a lot of caffeine. And my sleep schedule will be messed up, but I will be able to see my family and eat dinner with them, unlike last summer.. I never saw them because I left for work before they got home. So I'm grateful for that. And I will have time during the day (after I get a few hours of sleep) to lay out in the sun and do other things during the day.
So I start working there july 11th. And I think my sister is going to work there with me. So I can take my breaks with her and carpool.
That's all I got right now.