Stuff that touches you .. and no not like michael Jackson

[p0etixtragedy]

Have you ever thrown like a few coins into a charity thing and felt good? I realized that the feeling isn't worth the same as truly acting. On friday my uncle called me and asked me if I had like a game machine or something. I told him about my PS2 and asked him why. As you guys might or might not know my uncle is a vice-principal in an inner city school. Like a pretty bad area too. And he told me about this kid who was really nice, but his family was in a very bad state of poverty so they couldnt get him anything for christmas. So i told him, sure come on over tomorrow and pick it up. Well when he did, my grandfather and i went with him because we had to run a few errands anyway. On our way there, we also picked up a turkey and some vegtables for the families christmas dinner. When we got there and dropped it off, the kid came out to say hi. We talked for a few minutes as my uncle took all the stuff in, and you had to see the kid. He was so damn excited over this game machine. Like it was the best thing he had ever recieved in his life. And at that moment my feelings were so mixed. I mean first, i felt really good to be able to give him something that made him so happy. But on the other hand, i realized that this kid is so grateful for something as little as a playstation while so many kids are so ungrateful for the way they live. I mean he lives in a dirt little row house, with 6 people living there. I was disgusted to think of the things even I take for granted in front of him. I guess it takes something like that to make you see things for what they really are in this world.

Today i had along talk with dennis. I gotta say that people don't see how nice a guy he can really be. I mean alot of people hate him and call him an ass. But when you take an hour to sit there and straight up talk to him... hes really deep. And while people say hes arrogant, hes just as hurt inside as any of us.

He also told me again that i have no chance with her (not that i didnt know that). I wish i could be one of thoes guys that didnt care, and could just go on to someone else. Stupid me with that whole "heart" thing. Someone get rid of it for me please?