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Well, when things were finally looking at least okay, something happens yet again to ruin it all. I thought I was finally going to get myself involved at school and that I was actually being accepted by a group of people, but I guess I was very wrong. This semester I decided to rush Phi Sigma Pi, an honor frat. Inductions are this saturday, but I won't be there to be inducted because they voted me out tonight... I really liked this group of people and really looked forward to finally belonging to a group like this. I was never accepted into anything in high school and thought things were fianlly turning around for me. I finally felt wanted somewhere, and now I'm being kicked out. I don't know the details because the brothers are not allowed to share what goes on in the meeting, just that we are no longer welcome. I guess it wasn't meant to be but it still hurts to know that you've come this far, gotten to know all these people, did all this work only to be turned away five days before all this became final. And to top it all off I just gave $95 to this organization that I won't be getting back and I will never see what the money goes to...and I don't have any money to waste. It wasn't even my money it was my parents and I know they don't have money to be throwing away to people who don't want me. I guess overall this is just yet another blow to my already low self-esteem but I will get over it.