Im sorry for those of you who ive blown off, my mind is somewhere else.
Today was a horrible day. It seems when my days start out good, they only seem to get a little worse as the day progresses.
I seem to have no time for my self anymore. Or anyone. To be completely honest- im not my self anymore
In the past 3 days, ive gotten in so many arguments with my family, and a select few other people, that i dont even know where to pick my self up. It seems like im always back down, feeling lonely,feeling guilty. I can never win.
I apologize, i hear for it..I dont say anything, i hear for it. Im still trapped. For every good day, every good weekend, the next couple days are horrid. I feel like im stuck in some routine.
I dont even know why people put up with me, because i realize how dramatic i am sometimes, and i complain about every little things. I dont think i know how to just let things go The more stressed i am, the more angry i grow at myself..then i feel bad for putting my self down.
If i dont make my self feel guilty, i make other people feel guilty..and the cycle continues. I want to know why im the only one who seems to have such a hard time dealing with stress, and arguments. I cant handle hurting people anymore, i cant handle fighting anymore. Im burnt out. Im crying again. Ive been so emotional.
...I dont know what to say, to make things right again.
I seem to have no time for my self anymore. Or anyone. To be completely honest- im not my self anymore
In the past 3 days, ive gotten in so many arguments with my family, and a select few other people, that i dont even know where to pick my self up. It seems like im always back down, feeling lonely,feeling guilty. I can never win.
I apologize, i hear for it..I dont say anything, i hear for it. Im still trapped. For every good day, every good weekend, the next couple days are horrid. I feel like im stuck in some routine.
I dont even know why people put up with me, because i realize how dramatic i am sometimes, and i complain about every little things. I dont think i know how to just let things go The more stressed i am, the more angry i grow at myself..then i feel bad for putting my self down.
If i dont make my self feel guilty, i make other people feel guilty..and the cycle continues. I want to know why im the only one who seems to have such a hard time dealing with stress, and arguments. I cant handle hurting people anymore, i cant handle fighting anymore. Im burnt out. Im crying again. Ive been so emotional.
...I dont know what to say, to make things right again.