Quickly...
Can I be psychologically addicted to scratching my eczema? I know that's a gross thing to think about, but I'm worried. I knew I would get hooked on something in the end. Am I enjoying how out of control my life is becoming? I think I'm just going to pretend I'm watching myself, and not actually being myself. I entertain myself, so that's a positive.
I need to be more creative, less spectacular.
Everything is starting to make sense. EVERYTHING. It's making life a little less magical for me, but that's okay because I can sit back and watch my own crazy life and be entertained that way. I try to listen to what people say, and sometimes I just see a big sack of organs moving around frantically and making sounds. Kind of like when I try to read and I don't see words, but shapes. That doesn't happen to me as much these days. I get paid to read things, so I'm getting pretty good at it. I can even read books now.
Like so many things I can't understand, it all leaves my teeth chattering for more.
I need to be more creative, less spectacular.
Everything is starting to make sense. EVERYTHING. It's making life a little less magical for me, but that's okay because I can sit back and watch my own crazy life and be entertained that way. I try to listen to what people say, and sometimes I just see a big sack of organs moving around frantically and making sounds. Kind of like when I try to read and I don't see words, but shapes. That doesn't happen to me as much these days. I get paid to read things, so I'm getting pretty good at it. I can even read books now.
Like so many things I can't understand, it all leaves my teeth chattering for more.