Every corner i take, i screw up even more
December is supposed to be the month of pure "Joy" and "Happiness". Well i feel like i completly ruined it 9 days into the month. If its not one thing its another. I called in on thursday (a 4-11 shift). I had to stay after school because my grades have droped dramatically. While i was calling in, it just made sense to quit. I dont think i can handle a full-time job, and going to school full time, on top of trying to have a social life. Even though i dont have alot of friends, i still try.
I also believe and feel i need more attention. some times. just a general reaction. I need someone i can talk to again that wont make fun of me, when i am truly down. i know that when people like karen and mark say something funny about me, they don't mean harm, but.... sometimes when your that depresses, you can't help but take it too seriously.
I am currently in Box office writing this. there are 4 people in this box#2, pretty cramped. 3 girls and 1 guy(ME)
I got hassled by a few people for quitting. i however did not get much support. except from 3 people. Jim, (usher) was like, well it was great working with you, and hope you have a great journey. If you want a hug, we can have one, but i'm not gonna just hug ya. Nancy and Todd pretty much said " i heard the GREAT news " meaning your getting out of this hole. Gary pretty much cornered me and made me feel like the worst person in the world. He definitly holds grudges, and remembers if you owe him anything from like 9 months ago. JACKASS. One of most comforting and most willing to talk about it was Kourtney, i LOVE kourtney for these reasons. She TALKS to you, and not tells you. she told me i will be at the party, doesn't matter if i am her guest. and then she still wants me to get my bonus but even if i go on leave and come back, i most likely wont get it. i know that for a fact. because gary is a deusche. i wanna shove his mustang up his own ass.
Ever feel like the world should just end, so the pain can go away?
well i am tired. have a good one for the people who actually read this junk
I also believe and feel i need more attention. some times. just a general reaction. I need someone i can talk to again that wont make fun of me, when i am truly down. i know that when people like karen and mark say something funny about me, they don't mean harm, but.... sometimes when your that depresses, you can't help but take it too seriously.
I am currently in Box office writing this. there are 4 people in this box#2, pretty cramped. 3 girls and 1 guy(ME)
I got hassled by a few people for quitting. i however did not get much support. except from 3 people. Jim, (usher) was like, well it was great working with you, and hope you have a great journey. If you want a hug, we can have one, but i'm not gonna just hug ya. Nancy and Todd pretty much said " i heard the GREAT news " meaning your getting out of this hole. Gary pretty much cornered me and made me feel like the worst person in the world. He definitly holds grudges, and remembers if you owe him anything from like 9 months ago. JACKASS. One of most comforting and most willing to talk about it was Kourtney, i LOVE kourtney for these reasons. She TALKS to you, and not tells you. she told me i will be at the party, doesn't matter if i am her guest. and then she still wants me to get my bonus but even if i go on leave and come back, i most likely wont get it. i know that for a fact. because gary is a deusche. i wanna shove his mustang up his own ass.
Ever feel like the world should just end, so the pain can go away?
well i am tired. have a good one for the people who actually read this junk