argh
I'm at such a standstill. I dunno wtf is wrong w/ me.
what i can't seem to fathom is that i seem to be having a better chance getting w/ a guy who's on the otherside of the country, than someone across campus. I am DEAD serious. i dunno what it is... most likely it's me. It really has gotten to me. between will trying to get in my pants when i dont find him the least bit attractive, the kid who friended me on myspace from cali who shows interest (go figure), and the kid from across campus who i SEEMED to have had an awesome conversation, turned awkward... i really think it's just me.
i mean i shouldnt even care. but it's aggravating knowing what you want and basically feeling like extremes need to be taken to make it happen. Je ne compris pas.
fuck the ranting, i'm not going to go through a withdrawal of unhappiness like the raul from 3 yrs ago... I'm just gonna get psychotic and see where it goes from there.
on another note i woke up this morning after having a fucked up dream about me and alejandro tampering with cars, and diego got his face smashed in for our actions... it was pretty disturbing. I wonder what that means?
what i can't seem to fathom is that i seem to be having a better chance getting w/ a guy who's on the otherside of the country, than someone across campus. I am DEAD serious. i dunno what it is... most likely it's me. It really has gotten to me. between will trying to get in my pants when i dont find him the least bit attractive, the kid who friended me on myspace from cali who shows interest (go figure), and the kid from across campus who i SEEMED to have had an awesome conversation, turned awkward... i really think it's just me.
i mean i shouldnt even care. but it's aggravating knowing what you want and basically feeling like extremes need to be taken to make it happen. Je ne compris pas.
fuck the ranting, i'm not going to go through a withdrawal of unhappiness like the raul from 3 yrs ago... I'm just gonna get psychotic and see where it goes from there.
on another note i woke up this morning after having a fucked up dream about me and alejandro tampering with cars, and diego got his face smashed in for our actions... it was pretty disturbing. I wonder what that means?